The ward that Benjamin left was quiet. Dohyun slowly closed his eyes. The afterimage of the sunlight seen earlier flickered in the darkness.
Do Hyun wanders in his memory.
In the memory of Zheng Xicheng.
In the memory, Zheng Xicheng was talking to Tuanzi.
Relive memories countless times.
If it is a videotape, watch the same segment over and over again because the videotape has been expanded.
Delicately brushing aside the emotions that naturally emerge, eager to find something from them
【stop! 】
The memory stopped suddenly.
Dohyun slowly raised his eyelids.
There was a familiar light floating in front of him. Repeatedly puffing up the body as if swallowing, as if taking a deep breath
【How long is this going to last? ]
There was a strong vibration, making people's heads buzz.
I haven’t seen him for a week since I was angry last time.
A corner of my heart is filled with subtle intimacy, joy and longing.
Do Hyun exhaled.
"This is not my feeling."
Duanzi's feelings are not his own, but"Zheng Xicheng's".
Daoxian suppressed the intimate feelings and looked at Tuanzi indifferently.
"haven't seen you for a long time"
【haven't seen you for a long time? haven't seen you for a long time? 】
Ah! Kuai sighed
【I wanted to dig the hole for as long as I wanted, but ended up digging endlessly! Um? I also want to dig the hole in my coffin with my own hands! ]
Daoxian did not deny it.
From the moment my brother died, inherited his life, and moved on, I couldn't forgive myself.
I don't know what my brother is thinking or what I am planning. The way he smiles happily is very scary.
If only you cared more, if you paid more attention.
That might be able to stop it.
One regret after another grabs Do-hyun’s ankles
"Eventually I died. Although I knew my brother was kind, I didn't expect him to do that. This was outrageous."This is tantamount to me instigating my brother's death."
When I think of this, I cannot accept his life as I do myself.
In his memory, his bright smile felt fake.
So Do Hyun forcibly separated"Jung Hee Sung's" life from his own life. Just like having two personalities in one body, they think they are two different things.
In the month since then, I have repeatedly reviewed the memories from the moment I met Do-hyun.
Although this period of time has changed by one year, Daoxian is still living in the past.
In order to find out the resentment, I opened the memory.
Even a little bit, even a little bit.
If Jung Hee Sung resents Do Hyun, if he harbors hatred towards him.
So
【It’s a waste of effort]
Dohyun’s dim black eyes condensed into balls. The light reflected by the obsidian pupils injects wonderful vitality into the pale face.
【Who is Zheng Xicheng like that? Don’t you already know that? Why do you always do such ridiculous things? ]
His lips moved, but he could not deny the lump's words.
Do-hyun knew this best, having reviewed the same memory hundreds of times in the past month.
Jung Hee Sung did not complain about Do Hyun.
At the moment of death, although he was obsessed with life, he never blamed Daoxian.
The only ones complaining about Doxian are Doxian and himself
【Don't accept it now. The souls have been integrated into one body. What can be changed if they refuse? The same goes for Zheng Xicheng... No, you should understand what Zheng Xicheng wants best, better than anyone else in the world. 】
Bubu is right.
From the moment he woke up, Daoxian understood why Zheng Xicheng made such a choice.
But because of this
"i hate that"
【What?】
"Tuanzi is right. I know why my brother made such a choice. I don't resent me at all, and I know you want me to be happy."
Tuanzi listened to Doxian's words. This was the first sincerity revealed in the past month.
Since merging with Zheng Xicheng's soul, it is difficult to hear Doxian's thoughts. If it was a natural flow before, then now it is only in the When you think about something intensely, you can gain a glimpse by concentrating your energy.
"Maybe it’s due to Jung Hee Sung’s soul……"
Not being able to freely hear Do-hyun's thoughts, so there's no way to know what that little guy is thinking with his little head. It was obviously digging, but it was hard to pinpoint the cause, and my heart exploded.
There are signs of cracks in the fused soul, so I am even more anxious.
"If this denial continues, cracks may appear."
It can't be left like that.
In addition to the role of the tuner, there is still a fee for the violin performance heard that day.
【Then why do you deny it? 】
After a long time, the answering voice was thin and weak, as if it was going to die out soon.
"The only one who is okay is my brother."
A group of bodies that didn't understand the words shook slightly. Faced with the body language that encouraged me to say more, Daoxian still closed his mouth.
It seemed that he didn't want to speak, and his heavy expression could no longer urge me.
"After a month, I showed my sincerity."If you push them forcefully, it will be counterproductive."
Tuanzi unraveled the sense of unity. The halo dispersed, and Dohyun was the only one left in the room.
Dohyun temporarily focused his attention on the place where Kua Er disappeared, and then turned his head towards the window. The black eyes that could see nothing lingered somewhere in the memory again.
And then the tuner looked at that.
Dohyun, how about a walk?
When asked by Kelly, Do-hyun shook his head.
Didn’t Teacher Benjamin say that it’s better to take a walk often, eh? Go out for a walk and come back. Look, the weather is nice today too.
As Kelly said, the view outside through the window looked like the weather was fine.
Perhaps because the cold of winter has passed, people are wearing slightly lighter clothes and their faces are full of smiles.
The warm yellow sunlight falling as if embracing everything, illuminated all the scenes in an extremely peaceful and beautiful way.
Kelly looked at Dohyun carefully.
Tomorrow is the day when Dohyun’s parents come.
That was Do-hyun's discharge day, which also meant Kelly's last day of caring for Do-hyun.
"Last day."
Kelly curled his fingertips.
It was so scary to take over this child in the first place.
Even though he was blaming himself, he couldn't control the emotions that came out.
Kelly thought of a certain moment in his memory.
"Hello Kelly."
On the first day, I looked at the child she was greeting calmly. Unlike the child's expressionless face, there was a gentleness that would have been missed if you didn't look carefully. The slightly flushed cheeks and ears were probably a reflection of the new understanding. The expectation and excitement of the caregiver.
The dark eyes that did not come close, but just watched quietly were the child's defense mechanism and concern for her.
Because she is such a child.
She didn't notice anything, only thinking about how to get rid of her. The child fell next to him.
So.
Kelly closed his eyes tightly.
He was so panicked that he dropped the bag in his hand.
Without even thinking about picking it up again, Dohyun walked over carefully and picked up the bag.
"this……"
Snapped!
Nervously, he patted down the hand stretched out to him intact.
This is reflexive behavior.
The child's body swayed, but he finally regained his center of gravity.
"…ah."I'm sorry."
Not sure what he was embarrassed about, the child with a stiff expression put his bag on the table and stepped back. step.
Two steps.
Three steps.
Like that's the distance between them.
Later, when I realized my behavior and saw the child's face, the blooming red on the white face disappeared, and the gray child was there.
The long shadow hanging down on the face of the child standing with his back to the window made him suddenly afraid of swallowing the child.
Surrounded by inexplicable fear, embarrassment and self-consciousness, he walked out of the ward in a panic.
I don't want to do it anymore.
No matter how high the annual salary is, I still want to resign. I thought I was going to quit.
Picked up the phone and tried calling the child's parents several times
"forget it."It should stop……"
The face of the child hiding in the shadows grabbed her ankle. As a result, I failed to make a call and it was dawn.
The next day, Kelly stood aimlessly in front of Dohyun's hospital room, staring with bloodshot eyes for a while, and then opened the door.
Then, in a scenery that was no different from yesterday, black eyes captured her messy appearance.
After a while, a gentle and soft voice like the spring breeze came.
Not close, just in the same place
"Hello Kelly."
Kelly realized it intuitively at that time.
I couldn't leave this child.
Just like that, I couldn't leave the child, nor could I get close to the child. After a period of inactivity.
The child clearly knew her taboo, but didn't show it at all. The child Always the same. From the moment they first met.
Kelly cheered with burning eyes.
I couldn't believe what I was doing to this tiny child.
Ever since the fear and embarrassment I felt towards Do Hyun completely disappeared. After that, every day was hell.
It was a tingling feeling of regret.
Kelly saw Do-hyun.
I wanted to ask for forgiveness.
No, at least I wanted to take responsibility for what she had done.
But
"Do Hyun... wouldn't want that."
Kelly felt it intuitively. Even if he apologized to the current Doxian and asked for forgiveness, it would not be a matter for Doxian.
Doxian completely closed the door of his heart.
In this case, apologizing is just forcing others to forgive.
If it is nature The fragile and kind-hearted Do-hyun, although he will not ignore her apology...
In order to comfort himself, he does not want to just take advantage of Do-hyun.
Kelly just decided to do what he can.
Trying to get the thoughts of the last day out of his mind, Say it gently to Dohyun
"When you have a lot to think about, taking a walk can help. Compared with sitting quietly and thinking, your mind will be clearer and your spirit will be refreshed."
This is because Daoxian felt that the day of discharge was getting closer, so he said it.
In fact, Daoxian's situation was slightly different, but for the first time, Daoxian had a different reaction to Kelly's words.
Kelly quickly added the reaction
"If you go out and get some fresh air before walking, your complex mind will be sorted out a lot. Come back after walking for a while. Um?"
Nothing has been done. The child who sits there brooding all day long is too worrying. It feels so far away when we play games with books together.
Seeing Kelly's sincere eyes, Dohyun nodded slowly
"very good!"
Kelly, who exclaimed with joy in his heart, immediately came over with a coat before Doxian changed his mind. He put on the coat for Doxian, but he kept smiling.
On that face, Doxian felt a little embarrassed, but at the same time, his mood also changed. He calmed down.
The change in Kelly's reaction was also the result of his brother's sacrifice.
Kelly walked out of the hospital and took Daoxian to the park.
Daoxian stood at the entrance of the park and saw the bench away from the street lights.
"Want to sit on a bench and relax?"
Kelly gave his own explanation to Do-hyun's gaze. When asked if he would rest on the bench, Do-hyun shook his head.
The boy's eyes made contact with all parts of the park.
No matter how he looked, he left his brother's trace.
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