Do it again

"The last thing is the recent promotion of a supervisor that everyone is not paying attention to. Wang Yu and***They are all excellent and they are role models for everyone to learn from. After careful consideration and considering multiple factors, the company finally decided who the supervisor is.***,Everyone applauded. Of course Wang Yu should not be discouraged and keep up the good work."

When the company announces that the person who has been promoted to supervisor is***Finally, Wang Yu's mentality collapsed. He had worked hard for so long and made so many achievements, but in the end he was defeated by someone who couldn't flatter him. He seemed to have tinnitus and couldn't hear what the manager said behind him.

In this way, Wang Yu was confused until the end of the meeting, which happened to be at six o'clock. He tidied up casually and got ready to get off work.

Colleagues all cast concerned glances. Wang Yu looked at them, grinned, unable to smile, and said,"It's okay. I'm just a little tired from working overtime recently. Tell your supervisor that I'm leaving work first." The evening sky was dim. Shen Shen, the traffic jam on the road was tight, Wang Yu tapped his fingers on the steering wheel, and suddenly wanted to write.

Ding ding ding

The phone kept ringing, and Wang Yu became more and more irritable. When he unlocked it, he saw that it was all his colleagues congratulating him in the group.***He didn't even read the nonsense about being promoted to supervisor, where to eat tonight, and a few private messages of condolences from colleagues, and put his phone on silent. He casually threw it in the passenger seat.

The sky is getting darker and darker, as if we are heading towards the end of the world. The dazzling lights on the road teased Wang Yu's nerves, and he finally arrived.

He opened the door and returned to his territory.

He walked to the room without turning on the light and sat on the bed without saying a word. The negative emotions almost overwhelmed him. He didn't notice that there was a person sleeping in the living room with no lights on. Waiting for his return.

Songsha got up from the living room and took a cup of hot water. Wang Yu was obviously in a low mood today. The dark eyes held nothing, including her.

Wang Yu sat on the bed, his thoughts racing, powerlessness and regret welling up in his heart. This was already the case, couldn't he change anything? Even though she has worked so hard, she is still so far away from her goal. I want to give her a better life, but I still can't. Tears flowed down his cheeks unconsciously when he thought of this.

Songsha walked to the door of the room and saw everything. She walked back to the living room silently and curled up on the sofa.

I don't know how long it took, but Wang Yu heard the sound of sobbing, which was very weak.

He walked to the living room, turned on the light, and saw Songsha curled up on the sofa crying. Wang Yu sat over, held her in his arms, patted her back gently, and asked,"Why are you crying?"

Songsha looked at Wang Yu,"I'm fine, but I have a lot to say to you."

"you say."Wang Yu looked at her tenderly

"First tell me, how was your work today? Did it go well? Got off work so early today"

"Great. Nothing special, just that the project was completed and there was only a little finishing work left, so I left it to them."

Songsha kept staring at Wang Yu's eyes. After a while, tears burst out of her eyes, as if she was complaining and she vented her anger."I am very happy every day. My colleagues are very good and there are no difficulties at work. I live a very happy life with people who care about me and people who care about me. But I don’t have any ambition. I just want to be content with the status quo and just want to live this life in an ordinary way. I don’t want you to be so tired, work overtime until late every day, report good news but not bad news, and always handle everything silently."

Songsha cried even harder, her voice getting hoarse."I'm your girlfriend, but you protect me so well. Can you let me worry a little bit more? Can you not have to shoulder everything by yourself? I can't. I can share the burden with you. I don’t need you to prepare everything for me. I don’t need a house or a car. What I need is you, the two of us together. It’s not you who prepares everything, I’m waiting to enjoy it. I also want to participate. If I don’t have money, I can save money. I don’t want you to work so hard, can’t we be happy and live a normal life?"

Song Sha cried so hard that the pear blossoms were raining. Wang Yu was also stunned on the spot. He didn't know what to say for a while. He remembered what Zhao Zhao once said to him,"Not everyone thinks about the postgraduate entrance examination and the public examination. Everyone Everyone has their own choices, interests and hobbies, but you always talk to yourself and impose your ideas on Songsha. Do you think Songsha won’t be tired?"

Wang Yu looked at Songsha, still crying with her head buried. He stretched out his hand to pat her and comfort her, but he didn't know what to say for a moment, and his hand just froze in place.

This was the first time he had seen her. When Songsha was like this, it was the first time Songsha had confided in him. Did he really do something wrong?

"Wang Yu, don’t talk, just stay with me like this. Can I cry alone for a while?"

"Um."Wang Yu agreed, and suddenly wanted to write again. He resisted the impulse and sat beside Songsha like a child, motionless.

It seemed that he had tried very hard and was with Songsha, but the result of doing it again was Why does it seem to be just a little better than last time? It’s still like this after working for so many years. I spend so much time and energy on work, with no spare time. It’s like a working machine. In the end, it seems that I gained everything and lost it again. Everything. Something went wrong. The more Wang Yu thought about it, the more irritated he became, as if everything was denied by others and himself. The sound of even breathing came from beside him, interrupting Wang Yu's train of thought. He looked at the people around him, Still like a child, she cried and fell asleep. Wang Yu carried Songsha to the bed and tucked in the quilt.

Wang Yu looked at Songsha on the bed and kissed her forehead. After so many years, it still hasn't changed.

Wang Yu returned to the living room, turned off the lights, and wanted to sit alone. The irritability still lingered, and suddenly he wanted to smoke a cigarette. He took the key and went downstairs, and walked into the nearest canteen. There were a dazzling array of cigarettes on display. Wang Yu looked at them and suddenly didn’t want to smoke anymore. He walked out of the canteen, a little confused as to what had happened to him. He wandered aimlessly on the street, thinking about buying something to eat. Okay, lest Songsha wakes up hungry.

Dudu————

The sharp honking of bicycles and the horn of the delivery man's electric car merged together. Wang Yu followed the sound and saw that the car was turning right, and the delivery was competing for the way. Nothing happened at all. The driver was still cursing and saying something, but the guy outside had already driven away on his bike.

Wang Yu turned around to look for the takeaway boy's back, and suddenly saw tall buildings standing on both sides of the road. There were a few lights on in the bustling place. The people who live inside are like being trapped in a steel cage.

Among all the lights in the house, is there any one that belongs to you?

I seem to be trapped in this steel cage, with only mechanical work and life day after day.

He never felt that such a big SH city could accommodate him, as if he was incompatible with this steel cage. Trapped his body and soul.

It was like this before, and it is like this now, the same city, the same out of place, the same trapped in this steel cage. Maybe it was never this city that trapped me, but my own obsession?

The person who is struggling to find a job because of his academic qualifications, who dares not seize opportunities because of his low self-esteem, who is struggling to survive in this city because of poverty, has never seen the beautiful side of this city, its wealth, convenience, development, and opportunities.

Because of my education, poverty, and obsession with low self-esteem, I tried hard to change all of this, but it turned out that I was the one who was trapped? I have always lived in my own obsession.

What Song Sha and Zhao Zhao said were both right. I took it for granted and let Song Sha bear everything as a matter of course. Thinking of this, Wang Yu raised his head, why is there still sand in the air of SH?