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"Gone forever."

Songsha choked up a little when she said this. Wang Yu took out the paper and handed it to him. Songsha calmed down for a while and continued.

"I heard that she made a final phone call to her parents and then committed suicide."

"Her parents took her ashes back to their hometown and buried her"

"My best friend passed away suddenly, which hit me hard. We were together for sixteen years, and I found that I never really understood her."

"A week later, I received a courier. It's her diary. She said that she discovered very early on that she was afraid of other people's gaze."

"Afraid of everyone's gaze and attention, I have become hidden, afraid to share anything with others, afraid of failure, and have no self-confidence. Gradually, she was even afraid to talk to others and began to be afraid of seeing people."

"She said she was lucky to know me and have a friend like me. She had a wish, hoping that I would burn the diary after reading it, forget the past, live happily, and take her share of"

"I was in a lot of pain during that time. I locked myself at home every day. I blamed myself very much. Why did I never realize that I cared so little about her and never realized that she had such a hard life. In order to prevent me from thinking too hard, my parents even asked my grandma to take care of me. After about a year of stay, I gradually came out. My parents went through the transfer procedures for me and came to K City Middle School. Live at grandma's house in the country. Later, I went to pay her respects once, on her birthday, so I delayed a little time before reporting."

Wang Yu felt a little heavy after hearing this. The influence of his original family, incompetent parents, and self-impressed education are the epitome of thousands of families.

Song Sha raised her head and choked and said,"You and her It's very similar. They are all studying all day long. They are afraid of others' attention and have no self-confidence."

Wang Yu looked at Song Sha with some surprise.

"When you carried me on your back that day, you held your hands so tightly that my legs were bruised. It's very similar to what she wrote in her diary. At that time, I felt that you were just like her."

"That day I took the initiative to check up on you, because I was worried that it would be you who got picked."

Wang Yu was silent.

Songsha continued,"Wang Yu, I injured my foot that day. Thank you. I hope to be friends with you. You and she are really similar."

When Wang Yu heard this, an unknown fire suddenly rose in his heart. What does this mean? It felt like someone had stepped on his tail, and he didn't feel like admitting it.

"If you pity me, sympathize with me, and treat me as a substitute, then there is no need."

Is this the last time we were together like this? Where did this inexplicable feeling of dissonance come from? Songsha? The white room appeared again. Wang Yu had a headache, could not speak, and was trembling all over.

Songsha looked at Wang Yu was trembling, so he stepped forward to help him.

"No, you go back first."The tone was unfamiliar and firm, but still whispered softly.

"Is it really unnecessary? I'll take you to the infirmary"

"I want to be alone for a while."

Songsha stared at Wang Yu without saying a word, just in a stalemate. Wang Yu calmed down and saw that Songsha was still there. He felt inexplicably irritated. He stood up silently and walked towards the classroom.

At night, Wang Yu was lying on the bed. Tossing and turning, he found that every time he carefully recalled Songsha's past and experiences, he would see the white room. But when they got along, he always felt inconsistent. It seemed that their experiences had changed.

He remembered again Songsha, she was right, he was very afraid of the gaze of strangers, but because it was her, he could bear it.

Today, he actually said that he was some kind of substitute or some kind of friend? The more Wang Yu thought about it, the more angry he became, how could he feel that Shu Shu Why is there such a big gap between experience and practice as seen in the TV series?

Songsha was lying on the bed, editing the text message and preparing to send it to Wang Yu. After thinking about it, she deleted it.