Qingfeng Xu Xu

Early the next morning, as soon as some light appeared on the horizon, Xu Mulin woke up. It was already past midnight when Xu Mulin went to bed last night, and now he only slept for two hours. However, Xu Mulin always woke up early, and no matter how late he slept the night before, he would wake up when the hour came.

It's just that Xu Mulin felt unusually sleepy when he woke up this morning. In addition, perhaps because of the night wind last night, he now had a headache and his whole body was very tired. Xu Mulin stood up and relaxed for a while, looking at Xu Qingjiu who was still sleeping. Because Xu Mulin was used to getting up early, Xu Qingjiu gradually got into sync with Xu Mulin. If there were no homework arranged by Xu Mulin, he would also help. Waiting for Xu Mulin to prepare breakfast. Now Xu Qingjiu didn't look like he was about to wake up. Xu Mulin thought that Xu Qingjiu was probably very drunk.

Xu Mulin sat on the edge of the bed and reached out to gently brush the broken hair from Xu Qingjiu's forehead. When his fingertips touched the corner of Xu Qingjiu's eyes, he lingered unconsciously until his fingertips wanted to touch Xu Qingjiu again. When he touched his lips, he was finally stopped.

At this time, there is no"drinking" causing trouble, but once some boundaries have been exceeded once, they will always be tempted to test and violate them again and again, until this behavior becomes a habit, and then more excessive intrusions will follow. Xu Mulin didn't want to get used to it, and he hated being out of control like this.

Xu Mulin felt very regretful when he thought about what happened last night, not only because he took advantage of others' danger, but also felt that what he did was a kind of humiliation and contempt for Xu Qingjiu. Xu Mulin couldn't face it for a moment, and just like last night, he left the room as if he was running away.

What to do?

Xu Mulin is a man, and so is Xu Qingjiu. Xu Mulin loves Xu Qingjiu deeply. Xu Mulin didn't know when and why this affection arose. How to deal with it? Xu Mulin thought about it, maybe if he said it frankly, what would be the result?

If they are in love, Xu Mulin need not worry.

But Xu Qingjiu is still ignorant and has not yet awakened his feelings. Xu Mulin is still so slow even though he is several years older than Xu Qingjiu. So what should Xu Qingjiu do? Perhaps they would only mistake their dependence on Xu Mulin and the affection between family and friends for the same feelings as Xu Mulin. If so, when Xu Qingjiu truly knows and understands, how will Xu Mulin deal with himself?

It's not that Xu Mulin is pessimistic, nor is it that Xu Mulin is cowardly.

Xu Mulin knew that even if Xu Qingjiu would not look at him differently because of his unusual emotions, after all, the relationship between the two was because one had deep love and the other could not respond. Eventually we sorted things out, and even drifted apart, and could no longer maintain the closeness we had today, even if it was just a friendship between family or friends.

Perhaps this was Xu Mulin's bottom line, or maybe Xu Mulin didn't risk everything and indulged his courage at the risk of losing everything. But not having courage is not cowardice, just because what is in front of you should and must be cherished.

Of course, Xu Mulin originally insisted on this, and thought he could hold on to it. Unexpectedly, the so-called love that Xu Mulin thought he could control, and the bottom line of principles he thought he could stick to, now seemed to be nothing more than that. Even Xu Mulin found the so-called love so shameless.

But what's wrong with loving someone? Xu Mulin didn't think it was wrong to fall in love with Xu Qingjiu. But how to prevent this love from hurting others and himself, Xu Mulin didn't know, he just felt powerless.

Xu Mulin looked at the reflection in the water, all kinds of unspeakable emotions rolling in his heart like coals of fire. Xu Mulin raised his fist and hit the water one after another. Even though the water splashed everywhere, the fists hitting it still looked so weak and ridiculous.

The water on the stove has been boiling for a long time, and now it is almost dry. The water drops on the edge of the pot are sizzling. Although the sound was not violent, it was still enough for Xu Mulin to calm down for a while.

Xu Mulin added some more water to the pot, sat by the fire and waited for the water to boil again. Then he put the mung beans soaked last night into the pot, added brown sugar and wormwood, and kept stirring with a spoon. Xu Mulin let his thoughts focus on the things he had done, hoping to calm down the endless upset.

The smell of mugwort, the temperature of the fire, the steaming water vapor, the chirping of birds in the forest, and the gurgling sound in the pool. I don’t know which one it was because of, but by transferring all my perceptions to the environment, Xu Mulin’s messy mind that had been in chaos since last night finally returned to calm.

No longer running away, no longer hesitating, Xu Mulin returned to the room with the cooked sobering soup. When he left the kitchen, the porridge for breakfast was also placed on the fire, and everything was back on track.

Xu Qingjiu was still sleeping soundly, but he didn't know if he had some nightmare. He was frowning and looking a little painful, with a thin layer of sweat on his forehead. Xu Mulin threw a towel and wiped it gently for Xu Qingjiu,"Qingjiu, Qingjiu..."

Although Xu Qingjiu did not open her eyes and wake up, she must have heard Xu Mulin's voice, and her expression slowly calmed down. When Xu Qingjiu was first brought back by Xu Enze, she always had trouble sleeping at night, and sometimes she would even wake up crying. Later, she took medicine to adjust, and gradually got better, although occasionally she would still be like before, However, every time Xu Mulin did what he did just now, Xu Qingjiu would gradually calm down.

Xu Qingjiu opened her eyes and saw Xu Mulin sitting by the bed. Seeing that Xu Mulin still had a worried look on his face, Xu Qingjiu knew that he must have had another nightmare just now. When Xu Qingjiu heard Xu Mulin's call, he knew that he was trapped in a nightmare. However, this time the cries in the nightmare were a bit too sad. Xu Qingjiu searched for a while before he woke up by Xu Mulin's voice.

"Good morning, senior brother."This was Xu Qingjiu's first time drinking, but he didn't expect the wine to be so powerful. Xu Qingjiu thought, maybe it was because of this that he suddenly fell into a nightmare again. Xu Qingjiu sat up and rubbed his eyes vigorously. However, he felt that his eyelids were getting heavier and his mind was a little drowsy. Xu Qingjiu had no choice but to close his eyes and rub his temples a few times. He felt a little relieved.

Xu Mulin looked at the red marks on Xu Qingjiu's temples and quickly reached out to stop them. Xu Qingjiu

"It's not okay to knead like this. Xu Mulin frowned, but his tone was gentle,"Drink the hangover soup first.""

Xu Qingjiu took the hangover soup, took a sip, the temperature was just right, and drank it all in one gulp.

While Xu Qingjiu was drinking the hangover soup, Xu Mulin had already brought half a basin of hot water and placed it beside the bed.

"Lean on it."Xu Mulin adjusted the position of the pillow and watched Xu Qingjiu resting firmly. Xu Mulin put on the hot handkerchief and folded it just wide enough from his forehead to the bridge of his nose,"Close your eyes for a while."After putting the handkerchief down, Xu Mulin pressed it lightly with his fingertips a few times to make the handkerchief fit closer to his face.

While waiting for the handkerchief to be changed, Xu Mulin took over Xu Qingjiu's massage of the temples, using a sure amount of force. Just right

"feel better now? Does your head still hurt as much as it did just now?"When changing the veil again, Xu Mulin saw that Xu Qingjiu had his eyes closed, and Xu Qingjiu had not spoken. Xu Mulin thought that his method had not worked, and he couldn't help but become a little worried.

Xu Qingjiu raised his hand He took off the handkerchief covering his eyes, closed his eyes and sat up straight, lowering his head but still not speaking.

Seeing this scene, Xu Mulin became more and more panicked. He was about to get up and go to Shennong Hall for help. Xu Qingjiu was slowly walking here. spoke

"So comfortable. Senior brother, I was almost asleep just now."

Hearing this, Xu Mulin was stunned for a while, and then he shook his head and smiled helplessly but relaxed, and then feigned anger and patted Xu Qingjiu lightly on the forehead.

"Do you dare to drink again?"

"Why not."Xu Qingjiu crossed her legs and put her hands on her knees. She looked at Xu Mulin with a smug look on her face and giggled,"If I get drunk again and my senior brother treats me like he did just now, wouldn't it be the icing on the cake?"

Xu Mulin was originally amused by Xu Qingjiu, but when he heard the words"another icing on the cake", the smile instantly froze on Xu Mulin's face, and panic and fear gradually appeared in his eyes.

Xu Qingjiu did not notice that Xu Mulin The change in Mulin's eyes was because from the beginning, Xu Qingjiu's eyes were attracted to the corner of Xu Mulin's lips."Senior brother, what's wrong with your mouth?"As he said that, Xu Qingjiu had already raised his hand, and the tip of his thumb touched Xu Mulin's lips. Xu Mulin had already stood up in a panic, and backed away again and again, until he bumped into the edge of another bed, and then staggered. stayed where I was.

Last night I...Is he going to know? Still already know. Xu Mulin was originally uneasy and didn't know how to face and deal with the next situation. He didn't notice Xu Qingjiu's actions for a moment. Only when Xu Qingjiu's warmth came from his lips, Xu Mulin reacted, but his heart became more chaotic. After all, there was no way to hide it anymore. Xu Mulin stayed there, lowering his head and not daring to look at Xu Qingjiu, waiting with despair for Xu Qingjiu's next questioning.

Xu Qingjiu was shocked by Xu Mulin's sudden excitement and hurriedly wanted to get out of bed, but her legs were numb. Xu Qingjiu knelt beside the bed, numbness spread all over his legs. Xu Qingjiu put his hands on the edge of the bed to prevent himself from falling out of bed. Xu Qingjiu stood up, looked at Xu Mulin who was stunned, and asked anxiously"Does it still hurt? Does it hurt more when I touch you? When did you get hurt? How did you get hurt?" Xu Qingjiu said while still trying to get up, but his legs were still very numb, so he had to use Hands pounding.

Hearing this, Xu Mulin carefully raised his head to look at Xu Qingjiu, and saw that Xu Qingjiu's face seemed normal except for a somewhat worried look.

Xu Qingjiu had already stood up from the bed and saw that Xu Mulin was still silent and looked a little confused. Xu Qingjiu turned her head to look at the corners of Xu Mulin's lips. This time she did not dare to reach out, but pointed her finger at the same place on her lips as where Xu Mulin's lips were broken,"Here, senior brother, your mouth It's broken here, don't you know? Was it the injury just now?"

"...last night...I..."Xu Mulin spoke slowly.

"Was it injured last night? Senior brother never found out? How could it be hurt here? There is still some redness, so I need to take some medicine."

"knock...Knocked."Seeing that Xu Qingjiu seemed completely unaware, Xu Mulin felt a bit lucky in his heart.

"Um? Kneel? Where did you knock?"

"teeth. Knocked your teeth."Xu Mulin continued to answer tentatively. Seeing that Xu Qingjiu did not ask further questions, but just looked at his mouth with some concern, Xu Mulin continued to add:"I tripped, but I didn't fall down, but still. Startled, lost consciousness...Bite."

Xu Qingjiu had an"I see" expression, and added helpfully:"It must be very painful. It hurts every time I bite my tongue.""

Xu Mulin finally breathed a sigh of relief, but he still avoided Xu Qingjiu's eager eyes.

"However, senior brother is always very calm." Xu Mulin originally thought that the matter was over, but Xu Qingjiu continued to say,"How could you be so careless."

Xu Qingjiu saw that Xu Mulin was just looking at her, with some unclear meaning in his eyes. Xu Qingjiu suddenly realized,"Is it because I drank so much that I fell unconscious last night and made some joke? I am always rash on weekdays. The fault must be that I have caused trouble to my senior brother. He was too busy taking care of me that he didn’t bother to give himself medicine. I was so drunk last night that I don’t know how I got back to my room. Senior brother must have been very hard yesterday."After saying that, Xu Qingjiu lowered his head in shame, which made Xu Mulin very at a loss.

If Xu Qingjiu feels guilty, then Xu Mulin will only feel even more guilty. It is obvious that he is selfish, that he has crossed the line, and that It was because I couldn't and didn't want to leave Xu Qingjiu no matter what, so that this inexplicable situation could end here.

"...I am a senior brother, that is, an elder brother." Xu Mulin thought for a long time and finally said,"It is natural for an elder brother to take care of his younger brother. Besides, where does the word"implicate" come from? Speaking of hard work, Qingjiu also helps me a lot on weekdays. In this way, we also take care of each other. As long as Qingjiu had a happy birthday yesterday, senior brother will be very satisfied. We are also a family, Qingjiu said, right?"

"Well, we are a family," Xu Qingjiu nodded solemnly and replied,"Senior brother is an elder brother, and master...Master is...It's Master"

"Once a teacher, always a father"

"Well, that's right. But Master saved my life, not only my father, but also Master"

"What about me, just the brother?"Xu Mulin looked at Xu Qingjiu's very serious look and said with a soft smile.

"Senior brother, brother, in my eyes, there will always be one person, there will always be only one person"

"......"Xu Mulin looked at the sincerity and enthusiasm from the past in Xu Qingjiu's eyes, and had only one thought in his heart: It's so good and so lucky. He is such a beautiful person. I can always be his brother and friend. Senior brother, always stay where you can see him, see him full of vigor and innocence, never be bound by anyone, and will never be possessed by my selfishness.

"Qingjiu has really grown up, she would say forever"

"Senior brother looks down on people. Besides, I am not a child anymore. Although I just want to stay with senior brother all the time, even if I grow up to be an adult now, always and forever."

"Well~forever."Xu Mulin had the urge to hug Xu Qingjiu tightly into his arms. The impulse originated from the subconscious, but restraint has become Xu Mulin's instinct.