Catalog of the Lost - a searing epic

Familiar house, familiar style, even the place where the garbage is piled has not changed.

The

large hole on the west side of the fortress leads directly to the southwest area of the interior, and there are blacksmith shops, textile houses and other buildings in the area, because the internal space of the building is large, so it has become the area where most of the imperial people rest, and the remaining part is basically concentrated in the agricultural area of the northeast, in the warehouse where the grain is piled up, listening to the snoring of pigs and sheep next door to sleep.

Yoni stared at the place that had been with him for nearly thirty years, the layout almost exactly the same as when he left a year ago, but it had become a strange place for him, less noisy and more snaring, the blacksmith shop was deserted, the spiders had made their webs in the iron-making furnaces, and the smell of feces spread to every corner.

Maybe I should thank them a little bit for not completely ruining this place. ’

"What about me", a familiar voice rang in his ears, "will you thank me too?"

Yoni was sick, and he knew he was sick.

The symptoms had been going on for almost a week, and after he knew he was about to return to the fortress, he could often hear his daughter Leda in his head.

I don't know, but I guess thank you. ’

Yoni walked silently along the path of the fortress, avoiding anything that might make him make a sound, and he would also try to touch the cobwebs on the walls, but he always reached out, hesitated for a few seconds and then gave up, constantly telling himself that he was no longer worthy of touching the slightest thing here.

'Here it is...'

Yoni stopped at the mouth of an alley, a narrow alley that could only accommodate children in and out, and could be seen everywhere in the fortress, but this one carried a lot of his memories.

"You didn't find me, Yoni, and this time you lost. "

Actually, that time I just annoyed you, and I just found a reason to perfunctory you, but I didn't expect you to suddenly like hide and seek, and every time you hide here. ’

"Because you wouldn't have thought I'd be hiding here the second time, and even if I said I'd be here next time, you wouldn't believe it. "

'Because every time I have to use this reason to perfunctory you to go... Work, Leda. ’

Yoni stared at the alley, sighed deeply, and then said goodbye and walked towards the blacksmith shop not far away.

In

the moment before opening the door of the blacksmith shop, Yoni stopped, because he heard a small breathing sound coming from inside the blacksmith shop, he stopped in place for dozens of seconds, and only then did he determine that it was the steady breathing of a person after falling asleep, so he silently took out a sharp hunting knife from his waist, gently pushed the door open, and accurately cut off the head of the imperial man, the whole process was quick and quiet.

The blood of the Imperials poured out from his neck, soaking the entire blacksmith floor in a matter of seconds, and when Yoni had just beheaded him, the blood that spurted out of his neck soaked his whole body in an instant, he just wiped his eyes with his hands, and then sat in a pool of blood with his back against the corpse of the Imperial.

'It should be here, why can't I find it?' ’

Yuni's hand groped in a secret compartment by the blacksmith's wall, where he hid a bottle of good wine he had treasured, and if he drank it now, it would be more fragrant than it had been when Leda had been married.

But no matter how much he fumbled, Yoni never found it, and just as he was about to lower his body to check, his arm was suddenly scratched by something in the pool of blood, and he looked into the pool of blood, and then gave up the idea of looking for wine.

'Damn, I've been hiding for years, this damn brute, just one life, it's a loss. ’

"Is the wine that good?".

Life is too bitter and needs wine to nourish it... Cut, I just like it. ’

"This thing tastes good, it's spicy, and my throat is going to be punctured. "

'Be quiet, okay?, Leda, and I'll be able to explain to you how good this stuff tastes soon.' ’

Yuni stepped on a pool of blood and stood up, he took off his pants, wrung them out and put them back on, the wet feeling stung the old wound on Yuni's leg, and thus reminded him of the soldier who left him with a wound, although he died, Yuni still remembered him, only because he had some talent in swordsmanship, in other words, the only people who could remember Yuni were those who were born with talent, although most of them were enemies who did not know their names and died under their own swords, but he thought that he seemed to have only these in his life worth remembering。

Yoni remembers the people he can remember, their faces like a marquee before death, and at the same time hides from the Imperial people who have risen at night, and moves towards his goal.

According to the battle plan, Yuni was to find the cellar where gunpowder was stored in a house in the fortress, but he did not tell Emel that the house was his home, nor did he tell Emel that he had a wife and a daughter.

Along the way, Yuni hid from the Imperial people who got up at night, he lowered his body and shuttled through the alleys that the Imperial people could not enter, hiding behind the haystacks that they couldn't notice, he hated this feeling of cowering like a mouse, but in the face of the tall and burly body because of sleepiness, like a boulder in a high mountain will fall from the sky at any time, an unknown panic unconsciously arose in Yuni's heart.

After dodging the night's wakes up of four or five Imperialists, Yoni finally reached the residential area, and sure enough, there was no sign of the Imperials resting here.

Everything around him suddenly fell silent in Yoni's ears, and a sense of security replaced tension for a moment, and he could no longer hide his exhaustion, both physical and mental.

Slowly, Yoni's steps became heavier and heavier, and the entrance to the cellar where the gunpowder was stored was on the side of the house, but he walked uncontrollably towards the door, and the two feelings of longing and fear burst out in his heart at the same time, and his legs strode forward with longing, but his ears kept remembering the words of his wife and daughter because of fear.

"How can you bury such a dangerous thing under our house, a little spark can blow our family to pieces like those people outside, even if you don't care, please care, you can't even care about your daughter. "

"Shut up, Furla, I told don't get involved in my business. "

“... Good. "

Eventually, Yoni stopped outside the door, his hand dangling over the door, and his mouth was shattered, "I'm such a scumbag." Then he pushed the door open and walked in.

Leda's familiar voice reappeared, and she said, "Welcome home, Yoni." "

The memories that had been embedded in his mind, which he had always felt insignificant, filled his mind in an instant, and all that was left before him was the dreamy sunlight that poured into the room, and Lenda, the body that had been so small in his eyes, had finally grown.

"It's so difficult to choose a marriage partner, so many excellent men, Yuni, help me choose. "

'Aren't you unwilling, the rejection in your voice hurts as if you're cutting my heart, if you don't want to, you will refuse, anyway, after getting married, you will definitely give birth to a child, and the child will grow up to be... Now, Leda, how did you grow up so much before I knew it. ’

"It's that you don't care about me too much, I have appeared in front of you so many times, telling you to accompany me and love me, but you always treat me perfunctory, how about it, do you regret it now that I have grown up?".

'Do I really regret it?' Yuni tried to ask his heart, but there was no response in his heart, 'How did I reply at the time, by the way, I didn't take it seriously, so I replied slightly, just a little bit, although it was just as perfunctory as usual, but... She did say something afterward, damn it, I can't remember. ’

Yoni pushed open the door of his house, but fear prevented him from moving forward, only daring to look at the details that he didn't care about, that he ignored, imagining every look of disappointment that Leda showed, thinking about where the courage to send a cordial greeting to him even though she knew she would be ignored, thinking about why he still didn't want to face up to that tenderness to this day, and letting his heart feel warm again after Yurcoro's death.

In the end, Yuni did not enter it, because there was almost no change between himself now and then, what he would have done then, and what he still did, not even a few seconds of looking up at the sky, the tenderness that had already belonged to him was abandoned again, and then, he opened the entrance to the cellar, held on to the wall, and walked down the stairs.

"Yoni..."

The moment he heard the voice, Yuni was stunned, because it was the voice of an old man in the fortress, and he had never communicated with him except for giving orders to the old man, so it was naturally impossible to have the same warm memories with him as with Leda.

Unbelievingly, Yoni cast his gaze towards the cellar, which was densely packed with people, and a pair of glowing eyes made him shudder, and at that moment, all of Yoni's plans failed.

"You're alive. The old man looked at Yoni excitedly, and couldn't wait to reach out his hands to touch him.

"Be quiet", Yoni whispered to them, and immediately asked angrily, "Why are you here, and how do you know about this?".

"It was Fura who brought us here, and we've been hiding here since you rushed to the giant... It's great that you're okay. "

Before Yoni could say anything more, or even have time to think, a voice came from behind him.

"Little ones, I've got something to eat for you. "

The voice, the place, Yoni turned around with a shudder, and could only see a face peeking into the cellar, two giant hands moving as if they were about to tear open the walls on either side of the cellar.

'Why is this happening, why are these guys still alive, why are the Empire people coming here at this time, wait a minute, this voice, is it... No..."

Unbeknownst to Yoni, he didn't know when, the moon was obscured by dark clouds, and the rain began to fall as Yoni stepped into the cellar, announcing to him the failure of the plan to blow up the watchtower with gunpowder.

'How can it be like this, it shouldn't be like this, it's still sunny during the day and it suddenly rains at night, and now this kind of thing is happening, nothing can be done anymore, although I don't care if those guys live or die, but... No, Leda is here, right behind me. ’

Many years ago, Leda had asked him, "Yoni, have you ever cared about anything in your life?"

In this dying moment, Yoni did not see his father and mother, nor his wife, but only a girl with braids and freckles, who turned and smiled at him from a long distance.

"Actually, it doesn't matter if you don't care about me, as long as you're good, if you feel guilty about showing that you don't care about everything and just living for yourself, I'll forgive you, Dad. "