The imprint of the universe and the return of all things

Section 3. Meaning of life

The above-mentioned events made Brad deeply realize how small, fragile, short and helpless human life is, and how full of drama it is. Many times, people think that their lives are long, valuable, and meaningful. But if we look at the vast universe and the endless river of time, the essence of human life is actually not much different from those mayflies that live and die. They are just fleeting and humble existences..

Therefore, he was very confused and kept asking himself, what is the true meaning of human life? Is it just to live in this world in a daze and then die peacefully? Are they just like mayflies, simply surviving for the sake of survival?

These questions kept lingering in his mind and caused him so much trouble that he no longer had the heart to live the same wanton and indulgent life he had lived before. He felt that he had to find out the answers to these questions in order to find relief.

So, with these questions in mind, he began to use his spare time to read many books and materials, asked many experienced elders, participated in many group activities on related themes, and even visited many different religious churches. of missionaries. None of the available answers convinced or satisfied him.

Later, by chance, he attended an academic lecture at a university and listened to Professor Doudna's speech on"The Future of Biology." In this speech, Professor Doudna talked freely about his views on the future evolutionary trends of organisms, and implicitly put forward his speculations on the ultimate form of life in the universe. The content inside deeply attracted him and gave him a sudden enlightenment.

Therefore, after the speech, he took the initiative to talk to Professor Doudna and got to know Professor Doudna. After that, he frequently contacted Professor Doudna, had in-depth exchanges with Professor Doudna, and told Professor Doudna about his confusion and thoughts, hoping to get some useful inspiration from Professor Doudna.

Professor Doudna got to know him better after many contacts with him. Taking into account his occupation, ability, and mental state, after repeated weighing, it was finally decided to introduce him to Hill. Professor Doudna told him that Hill would be able to answer all his questions.

With a skeptical attitude, he followed the method provided to him by Professor Doudna and logged into the game"The Troubled Times". In the virtual world of the game, he found Hill who was incarnated as"Prophet Lear".

Hill very frankly informed him of the"Dao" theory of cosmic operation and the"All Things Return to the Way" plan without reservation, and gave his own opinions on his confusion.

Hill's view is that, indeed, the life of a single individual is indeed small, fragile, short-lived, and even humble compared to the vast universe and the endless river of time. But if we look at all life (including those that have existed in the past, those that exist now, and those that will exist in the future) as a whole, then it is crucial to the vast universe and is the key to the operation of the universe. It is an indispensable link in the endless river of time. It is immortal and exists forever with time.

The existence of life as a whole is meaningful, and this meaning is to complete the mission given to it by the universe - to promote the complete energyization of the universe. Therefore, every single individual life is also meaningful because every single individual life is part of this divine process. This principle is like the relationship between rivers and water droplets. The endless rivers are made up of tiny water droplets. Without water droplets, there would be no rivers. Rivers are infinitely powerful and can erode mountains and rivers and shape terrain. At the same time, rivers are huge blessings and can nourish the earth and breed living things. However, all of this is inseparable from the influence of every water droplet and is the result of the joint action of every water droplet. In the same way, the life of every single individual has contributed to the evolution of biology and the development of civilization, and in turn has impacted the ultimate energyization of the universe. The complete energyization of the universe is the result of these endless single individuals. The result of the interaction of life. Therefore, whether it is human beings or mayflies, they are actually fulfilling the mission given by the universe in their own way. This is why they exist.

After hearing these insights from Hill, he felt that these insights were very novel and unique, which opened his eyes. Although these opinions are very different from the mainstream concept of life, for him, it feels like a sudden enlightenment. At that moment, he was sure that he had finally found the answer he had been searching for so long. This made him very happy.

Seeing that he agreed very much with his ideas, Hill immediately extended an invitation to him, expressing the hope that he would become his partner and work with him to promote the"Return of Everything" project.

He agreed to Hill's invitation without much hesitation. Because he knew very well that this matter was of extraordinary significance to the universe and mankind. As long as he does this, his life will be sublimated and become meaningful. He will no longer end his life as a cold-blooded murderer and an unruly debaucher. Instead, like Hill, he will become the mysterious"messenger" of the universe, driving the operation of the entire universe.

Therefore, from then on, he began to follow Hill loyally, obey Hill's arrangements, and act in accordance with Hill's orders.

From Tokyo, Japan, to Huaxia, Guodunhuang, and then to Geneva, Switzerland, every action taken by Hill's team was actually helped by him secretly.

In order to protect Kenichi Ito and contain the Koinichi Association's arrests, he retired from the army and specifically applied for the position of deputy director of the CIA's East Asia Mission Center, becoming Hill's undercover agent in the CIA. If he hadn't secretly used the CIA's intelligence network in Japan to deal with the Koinichi Society, Yusuke Kurata's ability alone would not have been able to hide Kenichi Ito for so long without being discovered by the Koinichi Society.

During a special operation at Narita Airport in Tokyo, Japan, he was arranged by the CIA director to cooperate with Ashley and prevent Hill's team from leaving the airport. He had a chance to kill Yusuke Kurata and Jason, thereby preventing Hill's team's plane from taking off. But he didn't do this. Instead, he deliberately let Yusuke Kurata and Jason go in order to save Ashley, quietly creating opportunities for Hill's team to escape. Afterwards, although he was criticized by the CIA director for his incompetence, he was not punished for it. Instead, he won Ashley's favor because he saved her life.

During Dunhuang's pursuit of Hill's team in Huaxia, he was appointed as the on-site commander of the operation. The reason why Hill was able to set up a layout on the outskirts of Dunhuang to plunge multiple forces into a big melee and successfully get rid of the entanglements of all parties was because he told Hill in advance the ambush location of the special forces"Flying Eagles" he led. , allowing Hill to seize the opportunity, and then lead all forces to"accidentally" meet at the"Flying Eagles" ambush point, triggering the melee.

In the battle on the Rhone River in Geneva, Switzerland, in order to protect Hill and avoid HillBrought to the United States, he killed his partner Will Johnson and an entire special forces team at the risk of exposing his identity. Fortunately, his"acting skills" were pretty good, and the evidence at the scene was also perfectly forged. In addition, he self-harmed his body, so he was able to barely deceive Ashley and others, and frame the crime on Will Johnson..

(On the way back to the United States from Switzerland, he stole the USB flash drive left by Jason from Li Qing. He originally wanted to conceal this matter to prevent the CIA and FBI from obtaining important information about Hill from the USB flash drive. But unexpectedly, he was discovered by the sharp-eyed Ashley, so he had to hand the USB drive to Ashley obediently.)

Now, after the chaos at the Silicon Valley Secret Research Institute, he is completely unable to return to the CIA as an undercover agent.. His identity will be exposed soon, and it won't be long before his wanted notices will be everywhere in the world. From now on, like Hill, he will become a public enemy of the world, hunted by governments of all countries, and reviled and cursed by thousands of people.

He had actually been mentally prepared for such an unfavorable situation and was quite calm about it. In fact, due to the tempering on the battlefield and the difficult experiences in the past, he did not care at all about the danger to his life and the bad comments of others. He is not afraid of death, and naturally he is not afraid of being scolded by others. No matter how terrible the situation is, he can smile and deal with it calmly.

However, even so, he can't let go of everything. There was one thing that he particularly cared about, and that was Ashley's feelings.

His initial pursuit of Ashley was mainly because he wanted to stay by Ashley's side so that he could better understand the FBI's movements against Hill.

But with more and more contact and cooperation with Ashley, and as he got to know Ashley more and more deeply, he unknowingly pretended to be real and really fell in love with Ashley.

He found that Ashley had a unique charm that other women did not have. Ashley is not only smart, sharp, focused, and persistent, but more importantly, she is kind. Her kindness is not the kind of kindness that is pitiful, but she actually puts it into action, strives to do everything well, and strives endlessly for the benefit of the country and citizens, even at the expense of her own kindness. She is a rare independent and self-reliant woman who is soft on the outside and strong on the inside.

Logically speaking, such a woman should be incompatible with a pure utilitarian like him. But the reality is just the opposite. Her idealism is full of attraction for him, which makes him, who is often used to seeing the dark side of human nature, rarely see the beautiful side of human nature.

In his life, he had dated many women, and there were countless women who had one-night stands with him. But there has never been a woman who could make his heart move so much and create such deep admiration from the bottom of his heart. It was a feeling that he had never experienced before, a feeling that was different from the previous emotions inspired by wild impulses and desires. It was a kind of continuous longing that he thought about day and night.

He knew that Ashley also had a crush on him and had always trusted him very much. If he was not Hill's undercover, but a real CIA agent, and he and Ashley continued to develop, they might have a happy ending. He had involuntarily fantasized many times about dating, getting married, and having children with Ashley, and the two of them would create a stable and happy family together.

However, it is a pity that for the sake of his own beliefs, he had to betray Ashley's trust and betrayed her at the most critical moment, causing all her efforts to be in vain. He had hurt her so deeply that there was now no possibility of anything other than hostility between the two of them.

Thinking that Ashley at this moment might be shocked, sad, and sad because of everything he had done, his heart was filled with melancholy, helplessness, and guilt.

He really wanted to explain his behavior to Ashley and tell her his feelings, just like Jason did to Li Qing. But he also knew that this behavior was stupid and dangerous. Therefore, all he can do now is to repent silently and say"I'm sorry" to Ashley silently in his heart.