A former fool wants to change the world

Thanks to my dear friend for the writing polish and the source of the memes. Berning in this chapter? First person

"Расцветали?яблоки?и?груши，

Поплыли?туманы?над?рекой，

Выходила?на?берег?Катюша，

На?высокий?берег，на?крутой，

Выходила,песню?заводила，

Про?степного，сизого?орла，

Про?того，которого?любила，

Про?того，чьи?письма?берегла，

Ой,ты?песня，песенка?девичья，

Ты?лети?за?ясным?солнцем?вслед，

И?бойцу?на?дальнем?пограничье，

От?Катюши?передай?привет，

Пусть?он?вспомнит?девушку?простую，

И?услышит，как?она?поёт，

Пусть?он?землю?бережёт?родную，

А?любовь?Катюша?сбережёт，

Пусть?он?землю?бережёт?родную，

А?любовь?Катюша?сбережёт，

Расцветали?яблони?и?груши，

Поплыли?туманы?над?рекой，

Выходила?на?берег?Катюша，

На?высокий?берег,на?крутой，

Выходила?на?берег?Катюша，

На?высокий?берег,на?крутой"

I saw his eyelashes trembling slightly, and then he opened his eyes with difficulty

"Yo, the great artist is awake?"

I laughed and teased him

"Um. He responded in a dull voice and leaned next to me,"Do you know the winter solstice language?""

"I don’t know," I confessed,"but I’ve listened to this song often before, and over time I’ve learned—wait, what is Solstice?"

"Are you an underground person? Why don't you know anything?……"

"Ding dong! Yes, congratulations to the painting master for getting the answer right!"*①

……

"After becoming famous, everything I do will be greatly magnified, making me sleepless and sleepless; after that, it will be difficult for me to create purely from my own heart."

This should be the so-called creative bottleneck.

Will this become a good work?

The more he tries to show the most perfect version of himself, the more he shrinks.

The attention of the field, the admiration of peers, the judgment of the audience, and self-esteem Requirements.

He had to shoulder these and move forward before he realized that the world was not just his own small garden.

But this obsession became a shackles, restricting his expression.

This feeling of being unable to completely let go of his hands and feet, I have been there before.

Like a giant beast that has just awakened from time forgotten, the Ferris wheel makes the creaking sound of old machinery.

As the platform rises, the Firth of Forth appears outside the glass that has many signs of wear and tear. and distant night view

[I] slowly approached the window, [I] stared at this familiar city and this unfamiliar sky

"It is going to rain."

[I] said as I pressed my palm lightly against the glass.

Against the background lights, I could see the oppressive lead-gray clouds, depicting the most spectacular scenery with the purest colors - the whole city seemed to be on the verge of tears.

[I have seen this scene more than once, when we were still one, before the great changes came.

That day was Sunday, and I was going back to school the next day. I had finished my homework long ago, so I suddenly thought of going to ride the Ferris wheel alone.

Then the next day, the mutation that enveloped the entire city changed the trajectory of the world.

Then, [I] realize that the immediate and weak parts will only become [me] a liability.

This idea was quickly verified in a battle.

The two monsters [I] killed were once [my] biological parents, and this will inevitably cause my ambivalence and affect my state and even my behavior throughout my life.

On the day I discovered this fact, [I] became [us].

Why can these details be recalled in detail?

"So you mean, you……"

Yes.

No matter which aspect.

Whether it was [my] self-transformation that was tantamount to self-mutilation or my extreme mood swings, they told him that I was not complete.

But, that’s why I exist

"Otherwise, why would you lock yourself in a maze with no exit?

Because I know there is no exit, because I know that no matter where I go, there is a dead end.

Because they know they cannot succeed, no one will blame themselves for failure.

Because the result will not change no matter who it is, you can use the excuse that you have worked hard to excuse yourself."

In the last meeting in my memory, I said to her

"This is not what I want to see."

I suddenly thought of that question again. It was a question that I had been thinking about for a long time but no one could answer accurately.

"In your opinion, why do birds fly?"

The person who asked this question told me his answer with his actions, because all flightless birds are dead.

But this artist who I met unexpectedly gave me another answer that is very close to [Him]

"Do you think birds can, or can, think about this?"

I admit that [I] have thought this myself. [I] have tried to put my ideas into practice in countless world bubbles, but from the time I came to this world to the time I met Sol, very few have been able to achieve their goals.

But The possibility of breaking a person in half roughly like [me] and not sticking him back together until now is the first one, at least [she] [we] who has become [him] has not found the second one.

I Scratching his head, he decided to ask Sol something.

"Can you tell me a little bit about the history of this land?"

"……A godless country was destroyed by the seven gods in the world. Even the surviving people were not spared, and they all became monsters still wandering in the world."

?"Stop, stop, stop, stop," I motioned him to stop,"Isn’t this really deleting programs indiscriminately?"

"program?"

I realized that I had said another term that obviously did not belong to this world, but I really couldn't think of a suitable description.

If the seven countries except that country are all ruled by their own gods, since they are seven gods, it stands to reason that they should It's better to keep the water from the well.

Unless...the upper echelons of these seven gods have a common ruler, and a country without gods is a disguised threat.

And in the history narrated by Thor, there are always problems everywhere There is a subtle sense of violation. If the scope of the influence of this sense of violation can only include the rule of gods...

Is there reality in this world? Or is it itself a huge lie?

I suddenly remembered a story I had read before

"Let me tell you, but it has nothing to do with me personally, it’s just a paraphrase."

Due to problems within the ethnic group, an individual who had completely lost hope for his own race placed his hope on the unknown starry sky. The unexpected response was that the entire ethnic group was about to be destroyed. Facing an enemy who was far more civilized than himself , the ethnic group used its own advantages to select four archmage, no, four individuals to formulate countermeasures with slim possibility of victory, but even three of these four individuals are the result of the intricate relationships within the ethnic group that interfere with each other.

"What about the last one?"

The last one is a long story. He has no characteristics. The only reason for choosing him is that the enemy wanted to kill him by name. Although he took advantage of his privileges to have a happy time, the tribe also regarded his lover and The child was used as a threat, forcing him to think about ways to defeat the enemy.

This individual thought and thought and thought, and finally understood why the enemy wanted to kill him: the individual who put the entire group in danger was the one he had seen for the last time. Without knowing it, he told him the possibility of overturning the war situation.＊②

"The way you tell stories to reveal information is really like the gods of Xumi." Strangely enough, Thor has never had any physiological needs and feedback that ordinary people should have since he came here."But as a digression, if that If the last individual has a bad memory, wouldn't it mean that he hasn't been able to come up with any countermeasures in his entire life?"

……It makes sense, an unimagined path.

According to the history learned before, the gods of Xumi should govern the kingdom of wisdom. But judging from the very distinctive naming method, in the future there will be people called"The 13 Greatest Bodhisattvas in the World""*③I'm not surprised by anything

……

"I seem to have an inkling of something," Sol said as he buried his head in a pile of ice particles."Wait a minute, let me calm down first."

What kind of direct method of calming down is this?"

""So what you're saying is," Thor sat up and shook off the broken ice on his head,"it's possible that the gods will be dark under the lamp, and the destruction of Canria is just a warning?""

I understood his subtext.

"I can only say that it is possible, but if it is really the case, none of the seven gods and the countries under their rule can escape."

"This is a big gamble with the future.——"

Thor sighed deeply, and no fine white mist came out.

"It seems that falling here is not a bad thing, at least I got to know you."

I suddenly felt my face was a little hot. What nonsense are you talking about!

Although I knew he was just expressing it directly, I still felt apologetic.

In fact, I can break this place easily, but I have to wait until [she] comes to me. Okay, so that this eye-catching force will not appear in the world at the right time.

??Thor shouldn't have been involved, but he was forced to stay here for a long, long time. This was the price of losing his mortal identity.

Although I don’t know why, it probably has something to do with the five bottles of fire water he was poured into before. That’s beyond the scope of my knowledge.

"Really," he looked over seriously,"I'm going to stay with you until I find a way out of here."

Although it's just his direct expression... let's stay here, we still have a long time.

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Note:

①Conversations that have occurred before

②There is a very obvious pinch. Readers who are aware of the factors can put their heads down in the comment area ()

③【The direct translation of"The Secret Lord of Seven Leaves Silence".