Hidden Yao Era

"It's a big question, it looks like it's a small personal issue. It's actually about the eternal quest of the universe of the mind. That is, what is the real appearance of human beings?

This problem is too complex, everyone has a different face, and in different scenarios, we use these faces to deal with some real problems. Just like on the battlefield, I am like a beast, and in private, I am a very gentle person.

But the fact that I have so many looks does not mean that my own heart is volatile, and I have changed these appearances so that I can better realize my ideal life.

I want no more wars in this world, I want my children to grow up under the love of their relatives and friends, and I want everyone to respect each other's habits and beliefs, and allow differences and individuality to exist. I want everyone to find the value of their own existence and live a life that is not prescribed by external values.

I want Pluto to stop having so many doctrinal differences, and I want people to see in their hearts the hypocrisy, extremes, and selfishness of those doctrines. When peace comes, communicate with everyone calmly.

But it is very difficult to realize such an ideal, Pluto is so cold, so cold that people's hearts are frozen. There are too many people who are insensitive, they can't feel the spiritual God, and they objectify, secularize, and personify the gods. Many people who seek warmth turn to material gains, and the flame of firewood will eventually be extinguished. And the sun in my heart, I think it will never set.

I kill on the battlefield in order to end the war as soon as possible and live to see peace coming. Only by fighting can we survive. In the face of an unreasonable enemy, only bullets and blades can convince them, and I have long recognized this.

I helped those people after the war and helped them awaken in order to enrich their hearts in the communication of hearts, to let themselves come out, and to let the warmth of people's hearts shine on everyone I know. Let me remain good in the cruelty of war, this best wish is the original intention of all my actions.

I have never done anything against my true heart, ever since I have truly converted to God, ever since I discovered my true self. All these feelings that come from the heart are real. Each appearance is the real me, and they all exist in me consistently.

You are struggling with such a question, and the desires that arise in my heart are real. But others may not, they are trapped in values and prejudices, and even if they have a desire, they may not necessarily want it. They may simply believe in other people's opinions, and simply accept the consensus of society without discrimination. And these aspirations are both blind and false.

But you're not, you're not trapped by the values around you, and you're not succumbing to the will of others. Why are you asking such a question today? Have you discovered the shortcomings and hidden dark sides of your heart? I think as long as you recognize yourself and determine your true heart, I will wait for your reply. "

Sonya's message keeps Casto thinking about what to send her next. After repeatedly examining his heart and his own experience for more than 20 years, he still couldn't get an answer. He then looked into the bedroom mirror, where his own face appeared.

"Jet-black hair, thick eyebrows, and a straight nose. These are all given to me by my parents, and they are all so reflected in this mirror. But what about my heart? Do I really see my true self in this mirror?"

Casto noticed his eyes, and he suddenly felt that his eyes were a little deeper than before. He couldn't understand why his eyes had changed this way. He couldn't help but ask, "What the hell has changed about me?" He suddenly realized that something in his heart might have been changed.

Now that my heart has been changed, are these wishes that are born from my heart still real?

He quickly wrote down the message: "Sonia, I know that all of your actions are from your true heart. I envy you and admire you.

But I still don't know what my true self really is

I am trying to reconstruct my previous self, that self is simple, he vaguely feels the hypocrisy and cruelty of the world, but in the warmth of family and friends, I choose to believe in the beauty of the world.

After joining the army, ugly things happened one after another, and it was impossible for me to turn a blind eye to them. I have to allow myself to accept these ugliness, deal with them, and even accept them.

Now that I see the world clearly, I think a lot about things, think about the behavior behind what others say, and infer their next move, look ahead and backward because of the threats and suspicions of others, and think twice about protecting important people.

Everything simple and pure seems to be true now, what should I believe? I sometimes even wonder if my friends will betray me

Is my current self real? Or have I been molded into a false self?

Yesterday we had a long conversation with my cousin and her future husband. My cousin said that if a person is not ready to accept who he really is, and forcibly let him know himself, it will be very painful to accept himself, and it is very likely that it will not help him make changes.

My current state seems to be hesitating at a threshold. I wonder if I'm still myself after I have stepped over. What happens if you become someone else?

Will I give up my principles and morals? Will I give up my conscience and my ideals? If I give up these things and become another person, I will not be happy even if I am famous, and I will not have a noble spirit above fame and power, then I will not become a soulless walking corpse?

So do I want to cross over? Like you said, how can people be kind and strong enough to face the world? I'm looking forward to your answer, Sonia! I'm going to wait for that answer. "

After Casto finished sending, he suddenly felt a little tangled, and he felt that he had exposed his weak side.

"Will Sonia look down on me? She will think I'm vulnerable, right? I'm not a strong person, and I'm sure if I'm strong enough I wouldn't doubt that, just keep going. "

After thinking about this, Casto had the urge to retract the news. But after much thought, he still didn't retract the message. Facing the projection screen, quietly waiting for Sonya's reply.

Sonya's message came more than 40 minutes later. The text is long, but the first sentence is short and powerful: "Don't hesitate, step on!"

She went on to say, "Is your ego so weak? I don't think so? You're doubting that, you're analyzing yourself soberly, which means that you haven't changed. You understand very well what you're doing.

If that's the case, then live like this all the time with a clear conscience, and that's who you are. Even though it can be painful at times, even if it is tiring, then we can have a sense of existence and not fall into nothingness.

Your cousin is so good, she said something I didn't even realize before. I was too anxious to save my soul.

I'm also reflecting on what I'm in such a hurry about.

I think it may be that the time we have left for the rehabilitation of these prisoners of war is too short, and if we don't open their hearts in time, then they will be executed by the Inquisition.

Of course, this is only one reason, and at the end of the day, it is that I kill too many people on the battlefield, and this guilt makes me feel that I must achieve redemption in these people.

It is a supply station for my feelings, and their soul liberation nourishes my kind heart.

It may be a bit hypocritical to say, but whether I am really kind or not, only I can tell. In the eyes of others, and even in the eyes of some of the prisoners of war I have saved, I am a murderous demon, right?

But my feelings for them are genuine, and I am sincere to everyone who wants to achieve spiritual satisfaction. Infect them with love, and you'll believe me, right, you will!".

Castor read Sonya's words, and his mind was mixed, and he pondered the words in his head, and found that he could not find a better language to comfort her anyway. So he decided to express his feelings to Sonya.

He sent these words: "Of course I believe in you, there is a deep power in your heart. Where does this power come from?

But I still won't believe in God, and I think if I did, my heart would be even more disturbed. My understanding of the world requires clarity and precision, and the existence of God is partially contrary to these principles.

I feel like my words have put you in a conflict, how can I comfort you?

I believe in your love for them, and I believe that your love is not superficial, but sincere from the heart. I believe in your love for me even more, this love is so real, it brings me out of my confusion. But I'm also afraid that you'll be confused.

If there is someone who can also love you sincerely, maybe it will make you less miserable.

And I'm willing to be like that, I love you!".

Castor did not hesitate to send these messages. But 20 minutes later, I muttered to myself, will Sonia accept herself? But Casto then made sure he meant it, and he decided not to hesitate any longer.

"Thank you, for the first time anyone dared to say this to me.

But can you really love me? I'm a little too demanding of love. Although if I say it, you will think that this is not a big requirement, but it is rare in this day and age.

In this era, it seems that people have become extremely rational. Over the course of thousands of years, the human family has gone through a process of disintegration and reconstruction. After completely breaking up the family, human beings have to continue to establish emotional ties in the love of the family.

We don't seem to lack love. At the time of the Twin Festivals, at the time of the Star Lantern Festival, we express our love to each other and pass on love. But love is becoming more and more patterned now, and it seems that it only occasionally pops up during these festivals.

I don't want that, I want my lover to love me all the time, he doesn't have to talk about love all the time. But he will always love me and think of me from the heart at all times. When he sees me, I can feel the love in his heart, and that's enough.

I believe that this kind of love will make him love me as much as he can and help me achieve all my dreams. Even if he can't, I'll forgive him because he loves me.

But nowadays, as if they are always powerless, always absent-minded, and it is unlikely that they will always worry about a person.

So I've always thought it was too much to ask, but I'm looking forward to this kind of love. But if there is such a person who loves me like this, I will love him with all my heart, no matter how the world changes, no matter what I become.

I've always been looking forward to someone, and I'm actually expecting that person to be you. But I also think that my excessive demands are a kind of restraint for you, and this love is no longer a scarf with warmth but a cold chain.

I'm sorry my words may have bothered you too much, I shouldn't have made such a willful request. And if you love me, you have to break through many obstacles, the army, the government, and the family are like several layers of fences, which is too cruel for you, and you don't need to break with them for me. I don't want you to do that either.

How can people become both kind and strong, I feel that I am a little redundant to ask this now, maybe we are already kind and strong people. Hundreds of millions of kilometers away, I can still feel your enthusiasm, and you and I may not be far away. "

After receiving Sonya's message, Casto felt that something was certain in his heart, and he secretly made a decision.