I will not die!

In the end, the news about us being together spread in the company, and I was bombarded for several days, which made me feel a little irritable. But fortunately, they are also three-minute hot people. After a few days, almost no one mentioned it again.

In order to live together, we found a new house to live in. It was much larger than my original one and the location was further away, but it was still within the tolerance range of walking to work. When we moved, I packed all my belongings in just two boxes, while Alley hired a moving company to move for a day. After the new home was fully formed, Alley suggested that we buy groceries and cook a meal together, just in time to try out the kitchen of the new house.

She and I have never cooked before, and the house I rented before didn’t even have a kitchen, so I was a little confused about this, but she just said that she suddenly wanted to try it.

As it turned out, she had no talent for cooking. Even if she followed the step-by-step video, she could still make a mess. Although I thought it was quite simple, she even praised me as a born chef and the reincarnation of the God of Cooking.

Therefore, if there is any cooking task in the future, leave it to me.

Could she have done it on purpose... it doesn't matter.

Time flies by and it’s almost the New Year again. To be honest, I hate Chinese New Year because it’s so noisy.

Every time at this time, people always ask me how I plan to celebrate the New Year and whether I will go back to spend time with my family. After many years of adjustment, no one has finally asked me in the past two years, but this year, such questions have appeared again.

"Guangyuan, how do you plan to spend this New Year?"

"For me, the Chinese New Year is no different from normal times."

"So, you used to celebrate New Year every day? so good."

So you can still think like this?

"What about you, how are you going to live?"

"spend time with you."

As you like

"Will you go back to your parents' house to reunite?"Alley asked.

Over the years, I have occasionally gone home to visit my father, but this time, if I go back, Alley will probably follow me. Then...

When I think of that situation, I immediately get a headache.

"Ah, if it's inconvenient for me to follow you, I can stay here."

"No, if I go back, I won't let you stay here alone."

It's obviously a very common sentence, but why does it feel so strange coming out of my mouth?"

"Um!"She responded quite happily.

"What about you, won’t you reunite with your family?"

"Oh, I don’t think I told you, actually……"

It turned out that Ai Li's parents separated when she was very young, and her mother didn't care about her at all, so her aunt basically took care of her. However, her aunt only took care of her for a few years before moving to another place to be with her son. Life has gone, but fortunately, he left a house for her and would give her some living expenses regularly. This kept her from living on the streets and successfully completed high school.

All in all, while I was still longing for someone, she had already been forced to be alone.

"Anyway, that's it. If someone took care of me, I wouldn't stay in this house for 10 years, haha……"She laughed twice, but when I didn't respond, she immediately stopped her smile and asked,"Are you a little surprised?"

"is a bit"

"Humph, my mystery points have skyrocketed, right?"

"I have always felt that you and I are people in different worlds and are normal ordinary people."

"What gives you the illusion that a normal person will stay at home for 10 consecutive years? But being ordinary is indeed very ordinary, just a little timid, afraid of everything, afraid of being abandoned, afraid of being isolated, afraid of being ignored, afraid of being bullied, Fear of being said bad things, fear of not being needed……"

"And it was you, Guangyuan, who gave me, a coward, the courage to face life."She suddenly looked at me, with light in her eyes,"Although you may not remember it, when I first went out and entered the company for the first time, you were the first person I met to help me. It was your gentleness at that time that gave me the motivation to move on and turned me into a slightly normal person."

When the words came to the end, Alley's voice was obviously crying and her voice was trembling. This was the first time she showed such a touching look in front of me. If I were a normal person with more emotions, If I were a human being, I would have hugged her affectionately by now. But the annoying thing is that I have indeed forgotten what she said. I remember some work interactions with her, but I don’t remember that I was there. Did she particularly help when she arrived at the company on the first day? To me at the time, it was just an ordinary casual favor. But since it was her first time out, my image in her memory was Beautified a lot

"You have also given me many experiences that I have never had before."

If I could become a slightly normal person, it must be because I met you.

"Hehe~"

Finally, I decided to go home to see my father during the Chinese New Year.

Together with Alley

……

I thought about many kinds of scenes when my father saw Alley, some were surprised, some were pleasantly surprised, some were confused, some were emotional, some were angry, some were plain, but when I actually saw him, his reaction was still a bit beyond my imagination.

He cried.

It's the kind of silent cry that moistens things that I've ever seen.

I don't know how to deal with this face.

It was obvious that I was entering my own home, but Alley walked in front of me. It was obvious that I was sitting down at my own home, but Alley was more natural than me. It was obvious that I was eating at my own home, but Alley was more active than me. Obviously, I was more active than me. He was facing his own father, but Alley was talking more happily than me. Even though it's just some indifferent daily life, they can still have a happy chat. Why is this?

"Are you from the same company?"

"Yeah, but it's not the same group at the moment, and the parts responsible for it are also different."

"You said you have a cat, and you are all here, what about the cat?"

"There is an automatic feeding machine, so it will be fine if you only go out for a few days."

"Is it expensive where you live?"

"If two people share the cost, it’s fine. It’s not expensive."

"Oh, all right. What about food? Is it expensive?"

"It’s not expensive, and the company also provides meal subsidies, which is completely enough."

"Oh, all right……"

I'm so embarrassed that I can't even say a word, even though I don't want to talk either

"That, Alley……"

"Um"

"Guangyuan, except that he doesn't like to talk, is pretty good. If you think he has done something wrong, you can say it directly. You can also tell me. I will tell him. As long as you say it, he can I will find a way to change it if I change it."

"Don't worry, he and I have been living together for a few months and have been living well in the meantime."

"Okay... That's good... He just has a cold personality, but we're still easy to get along with, right?"

"Actually, I don’t think it’s that cold. It’s about the same as our cat. No, it’s much better than that stupid cat."

"Well... I don't have anything else to say. You might also find it annoying if I say too much."

"No, no, that's a lot. When we were playing games together, I wouldn't even bother him if he died dozens of times. Normally, I'd never seen him bothered by anything."

My father smiled happily. The wrinkles on his face were piled together like egg roll bread. But he smiled and burst into tears. Seeing this, Alley and I were silent. Obviously, this kind of At this time, any words are unnecessary. Even though I am not good at communicating with others, I understand that the atmosphere in front of me should be like this. After wiping his nose, my father began to complain about his mistakes over the years. After chatting with Alley, Only then did he realize that he had known almost nothing about me for so many years. He didn’t know what I like to eat, how many clothes I buy a year, whether I work hard, or whether I never go out. He can understand things, but after so many years, he knows nothing

"Why don’t I know anything?……"He exhaled deeply.

Although, I don’t know these things about my father. After all, they are all trivial matters. Unless I take the initiative to ask, I usually won’t mention them at all. However, he and I are both the types who don’t take the initiative to ask questions. Moreover, we don’t live together, so what if we knew about it?

"It’s not too late to know now. Alley said,"I have been colleagues with him for many years, but I only learned about these recently.""

"……Um."

Today's meal is probably one of the longest meals I have eaten, but what is different from the past is that I don't hate this meal. After the meal, I took over the washing of dishes, and Alley and his father continued to wash the dishes in the living room. We were talking and laughing, and most of the content was related to me. When I finished washing the dishes and returned to the living room, I saw him holding Alley's hand and solemnly thanking her. Seeing me coming, he hurriedly returned to his previous relaxed appearance. , saying he was going to clean up our room.

My father left, but Ai Li suddenly held my hand and said,"It's so cold, I'll warm it for you.""As she said that, she wrapped my hand with her own.

"Feeling warmer yet?"

"Um"

"Your dad asked me to take good care of you"

"Yeah"

"Want to know what I said?"

"how to say"

"I said, I will. And then there are"

"besides?"

She suddenly moved her face towards me and looked directly into each other's eyes.

"I will take care of you for the rest of my life."

I opened my mouth slightly, wanting to say something, but no words came out of my mind. It was as if someone had stolen them all.

We stayed at home for a total of two days and three nights, and most of the time during this period Spending time watching movies and TV shows. My father is already in his seventies. Due to working hard in his early years, he now suffers from chronic diseases. He likes to lie down. Alley suggested that he take him over to live, but he needs to find a new house. Move. But this proposal was clearly rejected by my father. He said that he just likes to lie down now, not that he can't move, and he will wait until then. Moreover, if that time comes, he doesn't want to trouble us.

During this period, my father also never He didn’t talk about marriage, probably because he was afraid that talking too much would backfire, although Alley would definitely not mind it. But it was obvious that he was really happy, and even told me that God finally heard his wish..

After saying goodbye to my father, Alley and I got on the return train. We were lucky this time, not only did we book a bed but also a double box. As the scenery along the way continued to appear and disappear, so did the memories related to my hometown. It appeared and disappeared. In fact, I didn’t know anything about that place. I had never completely walked through that place. I only went back and forth to the places I needed. In the end, the only memory it left for me was the past. Only a few people have stayed there

"Now go back."Ai Li sat next to me and sighed.

"Um"

"Going down the tree made the house a mess again, so I was very busy when I got home."There are connected cameras at home, and we can check the situation at home at any time.

"Um"

"What can I eat after getting off the car later?"

"have no idea"

"How about the burger?"

"good."

There was no words for a while.

Suddenly, Alley rested his head on my shoulder and said,"Can I lean on me like this for a while?"

"……Um"

"Your dad said that I know you better than he does. In this case, am I the person who knows you best in the world?

I lowered my head and stroked my nails boredly and said,"Probably."

Although she couldn't see her face, she seemed to be smiling,"Then do you think you are the person who knows me best in the world?""

"I have no idea……"

"what do i like to eat"

"nut"

"What I don't like to eat"

"I don’t like the strong smell."

"What type of clothes do I like to wear?"

"Casual and loose"

"What do I usually like to do?"

"Playing with cats, drawing, playing games, watching animations"

"What don't you like to do?"

"Work"

"I declare unilaterally that you are the person who knows me best in the world besides me."As she said that, she hit me twice with her head.

"……"

"But you just missed something"

"What"

"I also enjoy being with you. With you, even the things I don’t like become acceptable."

Ai Li curled up slightly, lifted his feet off the ground, held my arms tightly with both hands, and said in a very weak voice:"Do you like to stay with me?"

"I……"

I have been with Ai Li for so long, and have lived together for so long. What kind of mentality have I had in dating her all this time?

I don’t know...

All this time, I just listened to her and did what she said, because she never made any excessive demands, and those were all trivial things to me, so she said I did everything. As for whether I like doing those things or not, I have never thought about it, nor have I thought about it in the past. It seems like that's all?

Is there any difference between me and an AI?

Do I really like being with her?

"Like a child."she says

"me?"

"Not who else could you be. I want to grow up, but I am afraid of growing up. I like to pretend to be an adult, but after all I am just a child. Like thousands of children who have grown up and miss their past, they feel helpless, complaining, confused, and regretful. Like thousands of children who will eventually grow up but are afraid of growing up, they can be happy, sad, brave and patient."

"Vulnerable, yet strong."

I don't know when, her hand suddenly placed on my hand,"Perhaps a cat, no, a rose is more appropriate to describe it."

"Rose?"

"Um. Although it is very beautiful, it has thorns and does not like to be touched. However, if you are careful not to touch the thorns and just get closer and smell it, you will find that it actually smells quite good."

As she said that, she really put her head over to smell me.

"It's not the scent of roses, but the scent of milk."

I looked sideways at her, and she looked at me too, with a smile on her face that bloomed freely like a flower.

The train was moving, and the curtains next to me swayed slightly under the influence of inertia. I felt like I was about to enter the battlefield. Like a soldier, he summoned up his greatest courage so far.

"I like……"

Ai Li suddenly closed his eyes and kissed her, lips to lips.

Gudong -

A great fear surged through my body instantly, squeezing my heart hard and almost suffocating me. Everything was so sudden that the brain and body had no time to react. When my eyes were wide open and my body and mind were about to be completely engulfed by the fear, as her lips slowly left, I saw her eyes that were only half opened due to shyness.

A pair of eyes that can drive away all fear in the world.