Fantasy world

I suddenly felt inexplicable anger and hatred towards Wu Wenyan.

The warehouses of the production team are usually built in the middle of the bay. According to the distribution of our households, Mihe Lingzi is in the same direction; Wu Wenyan and Meifu are in the same direction, and Mifu's house is in front and behind us. In Wanzi, Wu Wenyan and I usually take Mifu home first, then I take Wu Wenyan home, and I get home last.

Today I dropped her off at the door of my house, and I had no intention of walking away right away. When she saw my hesitation, she said simply:"If you are angry with me, come into the house and punish me!"

After she said that, she opened the door and entered the house. I was still hesitant, so she came up and gently pulled me. Come on, close the door quickly. The room was dark and silent. I didn't expect her father to take a rest so early today.

Still holding me gently, she tiptoed to her boudoir and fumbled to light the lamp.

Although there was light in the room, it was still very dark. Her room was small but neatly tidied. Although I had been in this room before and was not unfamiliar with it, I still felt flustered and confused in the middle of the night, alone. Especially the whole space seems to be filled with a strong ambiguity and a light fragrance, which is constantly colliding with my will.

"never mind! It’s already so late, I’d better go back!"

"what? You’ve come and you’re leaving now?"

"It's so late, I'm afraid your dad will misunderstand!"

"My Father? Have you forgotten that we are now public objects? My dad always said that I should be entrusted to you as soon as possible like those cultural relics, so that he feels at ease!"

"Even so, in this countryside, we still have to be careful and don't gossip to others. Especially you, a country girl's reputation is more important than her life!"

"reputation? Being to others is more important than life. It means nothing to me"

"You are talking nonsense again!"

"I'm not talking nonsense. As for me, I have the label of being a child of the"Five Black Categories", and I can be bullied as much as I want. What else does it mean to me? As for the reputation you mentioned, I now hope that the worse it gets, the better. If my reputation gets bad, no one will bother me anymore, which will save me a lot of trouble. Good reputation is a burden to me"

"Wenyan! The two of us got engaged at that time purely to deal with the American talents. We had agreed on this in advance, and everyone in our families knew it. I don’t even want to have a bad impact on your reputation because of this!"

"But the two of us are doing this just for the outsiders to see. Even if the two of us haven't even exchanged a private word. Who believes the people outside? Who cares? When the time comes, let's bow down again. In the eyes of others, I'm still tired of playing with you and dumped you!"

"What are you talking nonsense about? You are a little girl, you speak freely and you are not ashamed!"

"These are all words spoken by country people, and you still feel that you are not used to hearing them. I have been scolded since childhood. No matter how ugly the words are, they will just roll around in other people's mouths! Can you manage it?"

"Wenyan! Although you are also a country wine drinker, in my eyes, I have never looked at you the same as Mi Helingzi and the others. You have read more books than them. Your parents are real intellectuals, so you can be considered an educated youth!"

"But I am a child of the 'Black Five'! For just this one thing, my life is worth less than anyone else’s!"

"Wenyan! This is neither your fault nor your responsibility, and you cannot give up on yourself because of it!"

"Yes! This is not my fault, not my responsibility, but I still have to bear everything! You want me not to give up on myself. But I can't find a trace of confidence and courage in my life. There is no trace of hope or light. Our four wine jars were also fished out of the lake together by you. Mihe, Lingzi, and Mifu, although they are also suffering, they are much better off than me!"

"Wenyan! Don’t be too pessimistic. We are also confused about many things now. The country suddenly drove us young people from the city to the countryside. We don’t know where the future is? Where is the hope? They are all in such a daze!"

"Therefore, you should take what Sister Xiaolian says today seriously. In order to help me before, you have suffered a lot of grievances and misunderstandings. If someone catches you again, why don't you also be punished to death?"

"What's the point of this? Political night classes and cultural tutoring are all promoted by the above. We are actively responding to the party’s call!"

"But we all know it ourselves, and this is just a cover. Just use this guise to fool around for a while. Over time, it will attract a lot of discussion. As you all know in the countryside, when these young people come to society, men and women will be criticized if they say a few words. You are a male educated youth who hangs out with us little girls every day. And they all spread some bourgeois reactionary thoughts and speeches. If you accidentally reveal some clues, you won’t have to find any excuses! Just this one article will arrest you as a counter-revolutionary hooligan."

"Then you didn't help me just now, and you talked to them? You just want me to be arrested as a gangster!"

"That is! I'm a wolf with a bad heart and a dog's lungs! Cruel and ruthless! I deliberately want to kill you! They are all the same, they all have bad intentions towards you!"

"Wenyan! Don't scare me!"

"Why should I scare you? Originally, Mi He and Ling Zi were so active in this matter at the beginning just to find such an opportunity to get more familiar with you."

"But when we are together, we chat all over the world, complain and express our grievances. This is a normal social gathering!"

"Don't you think that if this continues, the danger is already very high? Sister Xiaolian saw these signs and asked us to disband immediately."

"What signs of danger? Don't sound so scary. I know that with just a few of us gathering together every day, people in the bay may already be talking about it. At worst, we will pretend to be more like each other from now on, read the newspaper every day, recognize a few more words, and complain less. It’s better than just breaking up like this!"

"Brother Hao Bin! You really don’t know what’s the biggest danger in this matter? What is Sister Xiaolian worried about? I am one of these country winemakers. During these days in the cram school, I was just like them. I listened to you all over the world every day, and those love stories and complaints. I feel like I'm about to be brainwashed by you! Do you think they will be so peaceful? At the beginning of the cram school, they were all very respectful and polite to you, and they all called you teacher. What about now? Who still does this to you? He laughs and laughs every day, and he has no scruples in joking. When he heard that you wanted to break up, even Miff became anxious. Do you think something will happen if this continues?"

"Wenyan! You-what did you say? I——"

After listening to Wu Wenyan's words, I suddenly felt blushing and my heartbeat was beating. Indeed, during this period of time, these little girls and I were too casual about some questions. We dared to say anything and make any jokes. I think that a small gathering of just a few people is not too outrageous or excessive. Wu Wenyan and I are public, and they all know that no matter how crazy they are, there will be no other thoughts or misunderstandings. But now that Wu Wenyan said this, it became serious and the trouble was big. Is this what it is? Isn't this a mess?

Wu Wenyan sat on the edge of the bed with her head lowered and didn't make a sound for a long time. I glanced at her secretly, and blood surged to my head again. In such a quiet night, in such an ambiguous environment, although the two of us pretended to be in love, we never really touched our emotions and souls. I have been trying very hard to avoid this, and I am also very afraid and afraid to face her. This is just like what she said just now. Even if I regard her as one of the four little girls, once the emotional bottom line is truly touched, it will be fatally dangerous.