Broken wings

Although he had a stomach full of doubts, even though he was only a dozen meters away from her, he still felt uncomfortable when Bi Zhoucheng took his place.

Bi Zhoucheng walked to the table and sat down, and said softly: "He has left, and now there is no one else, do you want to come out?".

"He's really gone?".

"What am I lying to you for? "

"Outside the door, outside the window, are there any suspicious figures?"

"No, don't worry, even if there is, who can move a hair of your hair under my nose?

A somewhat aggrieved voice came from inside: "He fed me blood." "

"He fed you water,

cold boiled water, didn't you take medicine to calm down? At that time, you wanted to take all the bottles of medicine, but he was afraid that you would choke, so he fed you water, and I didn't believe that you touched the corners of your mouth to see if there was blood. "

Qi Xiujin touched the corner of his mouth and sniffed it, but he didn't smell blood.

"Do you want to come out

? If you don't want to come out now, just go inside, it's okay, I'm outside. "

Qi Xiu didn't want to go out, but he was afraid that he wouldn't be able to wait and leave: "I, I'll stay a little longer, stay a little longer." "

"Good. "

Unexpectedly, she stayed for another two hours, and Bi Zhoucheng didn't urge her, just waited outside, and kept looking at the door of the cupboard while waiting, thinking about what she had experienced in the past. Thinking about it, he thought that if he could experience it himself, he would be able to experience her feelings more deeply, and he would know what to say and do to make her feel more at ease.

Qi Xiu fell asleep inside, and when she woke up, she didn't know how long had passed, and she shouted in a little panic: "Marshal, are you still there?"

"I'm here. "

Qi Xiu breathed a sigh of relief, stretched out his arms and legs, which were already numb from curling, and asked, "Is it dark?"

"It's getting dark. "

"Then when it's dark, close the doors and windows, and don't light the lights in the house. "

"Okay, I don't light the light, are you hungry, do you want to drink water, or do you want to go to the toilet?".

"I wanted to take a shower, I peed my pants. "

"Then I'll prepare the bath water for you first, and then you can come out when it's dark. "

When it gets dark, the house will still be a little bright,

because the light from outside will seep in, Bi Zhoucheng asked: "Hugh, it's already dark, but the house is still a little bright, do you want to pull down the curtains?"

"Pull it down, there will be no light at all. "

"Okay, I'll pull it off now. After the curtain was drawn, Bi Zhoucheng confirmed that there was no light in the room, it was dark, and he couldn't see his five fingers, so he said, "It's all dark in the house now, come out? The bath water is three meters away from the cupboard." "

Bi Zhoucheng heard the sound of stabbing and stabbing inside, like the sound of the cloth being torn, and then the sound of the cabinet door opening, a peculiar smell emanated from inside, Bi Zhoucheng said softly: "The water is on your right hand, just a few steps away, the towel is also on the bath bucket, the clothes are next to it, you can touch it." "

Qi Xiu stammered a little: "You, you go to the small study." "

"Good. Bizhou Cheng groped for movement, opened the door, closed the door, and said, "Don't close the door!"

Bi Zhoucheng opened the door again, and Qi Xiu said, "That's it, don't close the door." "

"Okay, I'm not closing, you can take a shower. "

Waiting for Qi Xiu to take a bath and come out, skillfully groping and lighting the lamp, Bi Zhoucheng saw that there was a light and walked out, Qi Xiu sat at the table, his hair was still wet, and there was a deep dark blue under his eyes, and he turned his head like a frightened deer, looking at him with that wet eye.

Bi Zhoucheng walked up to her and said, "Are you okay?"

Qi Xiujin moved her mouth, her mouth was full of the smell of vomit, she was

extremely disgusting, her mouth was dry and bitter, she poured a glass of cold water and drank it, and said in a low voice: "Perhaps, death is my best destination, and if I die, I don't have to be afraid of anything." "

Bi Zhoucheng touched her hair: "Hugh, damn it, it's the wicked, Qian Shuai has dealings with them, and it's also to catch them all, he has absolutely no intention of hurting you, you can rest assured of this." In this way, you go to live with Master Kongsha for a while, and calm down your mind. "

Qi Xiu said confusedly: "Looking for the master......

"Yes, go to the master, stay or travel with her, it's okay, when you feel better, come back, and I'll arrange everything for you." "

Qi Xiu's eyes were hot, and he said aggrievedly: "Marshal ......."

Bi Zhoucheng comforted softly: "It's okay, when you are not in the mood for a trough, you will be fine when it passes, I know, you are very strong." "

Bi Zhoucheng left the military and stayed here for so long, just to make her feel at ease, Qi Xiu's gratitude to him only increased, Bi Zhoucheng knew what she was thinking when he saw her eyes, raised his palm and patted her head gently, and smiled at her with a little doting: "If you want to thank me, bring me that complete Hajj, I want to see her." "

Bi Zhoucheng's voice was low, he was convincing, and he had the power to soothe people's hearts, and he felt much better after crying for a while, so he packed his clothes and prepared to leave tomorrow.

As soon as Qi Xiu Ji stepped into the temple, a nun came up to greet him: "General Qi, please come in, the marshal has sent us a letter in advance, and the residence has been arranged for you." "

Only then did Qi Xiu know that Bi Zhoucheng had arranged it for herself, and a warm current surged through her heart, and she smiled back: "Thank you, Master." "

"The master is meditating inside and waiting for you. "

"Thank you, Master, for showing the way. Qi Xiu pilgrimage into the meditation room, the guide of the master retreated, Qi Xiu saw that the master of the empty Buddha was meditating, did not make a sound, next to her sat down in a zazen meditation, closed his eyes and meditated, until the master spoke, "General Qi, long time no see." "

Qi Xiujin opened his eyes and said, "Master, the disciple is here to disturb again." "

Master Kongshi still looked indifferent and unfazed: "The marshal mentioned your recent situation to the poor Ni in the letter, how is General Qi doing lately?"

"Not so good. Qi Xiu said frankly, "The master that the disciple seeks is still in a similar situation as a few years ago, and I want to confide in the master, and I hope that the master will guide the disciple to a clear path." "

"Please. "

Two hours later.

"Sounds like this, General Qi seems to have no thoughts of life?"

"I'm afraid I can't control the dark side of my heart, I know that I am not a kind and simple person, since I was a child, I have a lot of evil thoughts in my mind. If I am invaded by poison and become a tool of murder, to disregard human life and persecute the people of the Yuan Kingdom, I can't forgive myself. "

"General Qi has a pure temperament, and the poor nun knows it. You see so many rescued women and children, and in the end they never escape the end of madness or suicide, and you are afraid that you will die like that, and you can understand the fear in your heart. If the poor nun guessed correctly, if there is no reassurance pill of the marshal over the years, and you are always relieved, I am afraid that you will not be able to go today, so even if you have demons in your heart, when you want to commit suicide, you still think of the kindness of the marshal who saved you back then, the kindness of the marshal who has cultivated you for many years, and the feelings of the marshal for you, if you just cut off your life, you are ashamed of him. In addition, you are afraid that you will not know where you will go when you die. Master Empty Buddha closed his eyes and recited Amitabha, then opened his eyes again, "It's human nature to have hatred and want revenge, and poor nuns have never experienced that miserable hell, so they can't persuade you to let go of hatred." "

Qi Xiujin listened silently: "Is there a way to give me a good time without making the important people around me sad?"

"Amitabha, good, good. Master Empty Buddha closed his eyes, "You want to die, but the poor nun won't stop you, but the poor nun probably remembers that you believe in the reincarnation of cause and effect." "

“...... Be. "In fact, what Qi Xiu is most afraid of is also this unknown fear, she has not done evil in her life, she has done evil, she is afraid of torture in hell, she herself is a person who is afraid of pain.

"You should have this calamity in this life, this is fate, it is to pay for the sins of your previous life, it is not that you can die and be a hundred, even if you cut yourself, you will not be liberated, this debt will follow you to the next life, you will have to end. You have also committed murder before, but you are not innocent, and you may not be able to reincarnate as an adult after death, or it is still possible to meet them. If you want to get out of the predicament, you must resolve the karmic obstacles, make the merits of the ten directions, and have the people of the world in mind, so that you can offset the merits and demerits. "

Qi Xiu was stunned: "The merits of the ten directions that are beneficial to the common people in the world?".

"Yes. "

Qi Xiujing's heart was shocked, where did she have such ability, and said with an embarrassed face: "I am infected with severe poison, and my time is numbered, how can I make such a great contribution? The marshal is almost ...... How can I have that much power......

".

Master Empty Release shook his head: "No, the poison in your body is not enough to kill, and your yang lifespan is still very long. So, you have to think for yourself, whether to escape the reality of death, or to take on the life of everything. "

Master Kongshi is accustomed to seeing the love, hatred, and hatred of ordinary people in the world, and sometimes he is so calm that it makes people feel cold-blooded.

Qi Xiu couldn't help but think, being controlled like a walking corpse, is it still called alive?

Qi Xiu thought for a moment and said, "How can I determine if the decision I make is big enough to be beneficial to the whole world?"

"This standard is in your heart. "

"Compared with death, I am more worried about where I will go after I die, and whether I will be better off in the next life. "

Master Kongsha lowered his eyelids and looked at Qi Xiu's confused hair, remembering how she came here to cultivate her mind four years ago, but she didn't expect that after four years of going around and around, she was still trapped by similar questions, stumbling on her feet, and sighed: "People always hope for the next life, but do you know that this life is not the next life you said in your previous life?" Your fate is full of hardships, and it is indeed hard, but since you choose to be born in this body, there must be a reason for your choice, no matter how much hardship you endure and how many tears you shed, this life also has a place that you like, and your life path was chosen on the day you were born. Instead of being tormented by those pains, it is better to meditate on the mind, think more about the things you have, and accumulate more good fortune. "

Qi Xiu's eyes gradually moistened, and his body drooped down softly: "Master, sometimes I will blame fate for being too unfair to me, and I will blame why I have experienced these bad things, but if you ask me, there is a person I yearn for and envy now, this life has not suffered from my hardships, lives very happily, has money, leisure and home, you ask me if I am willing to exchange my life with her...... I don't want to, either. Qi Xiujin covered his mouth, but he couldn't suppress it, "I still don't want to, the people around me who are good to me, I am reluctant to have no intersection with them, if it weren't for every decision in the past that made me step by step to the present, I wouldn't have met them, you let me exchange those envious things for them, I won't change." "

"Yes, these may be the reasons why you chose this life in the first place, these are the good fortune that God has given you. If you want to stay quiet, you can stay, but the temple has a rule, every day from the hour of the hour, a moment of rest, every day to recite the heart of the pure mind, practice for two hours, meditate for two hours. You can use this time to think about how you can accomplish these ten things, and you can also think about whether you really want to die, the value of death and the rest of your life, which one do you care about more, and then leave after you figure it out. "

"Yes, thank you for your advice. Qi Xiu bowed his head in a daze, and Master Kongsha took two steps out, then stopped to look back at her, "There is another rule, you can't take those messy medicines when you are here." "