Broken wings

"Okay, Madame has spoken, do I dare not listen?" Ouyang Qian pulled a long voice, took her shoulder, let her head rest on his shoulder, and patted her head gently and comfortingly, "My little friend is very temperamental, has he been said again? You just go in your left ear and go out in your right ear, don't worry about them." "

Qi Xiu Jin

adjusted a comfortable position, his head rested on his lap, Ouyang Qian stroked her earlobe, looked at her eyes seriously, Qi Xiu Jin whispered: "Once, I had a nightmare, dreaming that my father and my grandmother came to Guangzhou, at that time I had just got off work, very tired, just fell asleep, I heard my grandmother sitting firmly on the edge of my bed, nagging in my ear. You know that I hate it most when people disturb my sleep, and what she says is getting worse and worse, and the emotions I have suppressed for so many years suddenly explode, and I quarrel with her hoarsely, and my voice is hoarse. She went to complain to my father that I was disrespectful to her, and my father found the inn where I was staying, carrying a very thick stick. I opened the door and looked, and he was looking for me door by door, trying to beat me. I went straight into the kitchen and got a knife, and asked him to kill me directly, so that I would not suffer in this world. Qi Xiu was very calm when he said this, but Ouyang Qian could feel her emotional fluctuations, lowered his head and kissed the corner of her lips, and rubbed comfortingly.

"I grew up here with trepidation, and when I came out, I imitated their words and deeds, and as a result, I ran into walls everywhere. Later, I tried my best to pretend to be a normal person, but I was always discovered, my extreme mentality, my dark psychology, which made me a little frustrated. But I know that the real me is like this, and I don't want to pretend to be another face. Many, many times when I see people who are full of kindness to all things in the world, I feel jealous from the bottom of my heart, because I have suffered so much myself, so I look down on those who have not experienced as much suffering as I have been. In fact, I know that my true thought is jealousy, because a person's background cannot be chosen, and I am even jealous of you. Every time I come back, all I get is belittling and blame, and whenever I go, I don't get any happiness. "

"But it's because all these factors come together that you become what you are now, aren't you?"

Ouyang Qian held her chin and rubbed it gently: "Don't you think you're great? "

"Actually, I just want to say that I can try my best to have a normal life outside, but if they are stationed in the world where I live outside, in the past Guangzhou, or now Long'an, I will collapse. Not to mention life, even stepping on it, I will be very repulsed, that is where I can breathe freely, I just hope they don't come close. "

Ouyang Qian smiled and said: "Well, you mentioned to me before, a few years before we met, because you didn't save money for a year, my father wanted to come to Guangzhou to find you, arrest you home, and don't allow you to come out to work again. Ouyang Qian pinched her face dotingly, "Why are the children so cute, if you don't tell your father the specific address, how can he find you?" I know what you think, you just think it's good to keep all your bad memories here, and don't want them to go anywhere where you live all the year round." "

"I still

remember, one year before I met you, when I went back for the New Year, they always worried about my family, and I was annoying and nagging, but my grandmother still kept nagging. I replied directly, I come back once a year, just to do my filial piety, I don't want to make you unhappy, you don't want to talk about it anymore, it's useless to talk about it, what is the need to nag? My grandmother said that as long as you get married, all these contradictions can be saved, and your father's mind is gone. Qi Xiu touched Ouyang Qian's chin ambiguously, "I was forced to have no room to breathe, I said, it's not that I don't want to get married." My grandmother then asked, "What is that?" I said, "Go and ask your eldest grandson." She rolled her eyes, her tone was fierce, and she said, "It's about the old grain, I see if you can remember it for a lifetime." Then he turned around and walked away. "

Ouyang Qian's eyes burst out with cold light, and his jawline moved slightly.

"I sometimes feel that I have been soaked in the victim's guilt theory for too long, and it has taken me step by step to form my own distorted personality. Why don't everyone blame me for not condemning my perpetrators, but blame me for not being influenced by this? Don't I want to be a kind person? I don't want people to love me? I don't want to start a family? But why should I be blamed for all this? The neighbor's son harassed me for months, and my mother took me to their house, and he didn't come to me again. Later, my uncle's son came again, directly to my house, and my brother was in another room, and we were only a few meters away. He is not dead, he comes again and again, often I am still asleep, he touches me and wakes up, I don't know why he came to me, I can't even sleep well. But there was no one around me, my mother was not there, my father was not there, my sister was not there, and later, my brother also went back to other places. The back of Qi Xiu's head rubbed hard against his thigh, "I thought that if I told them the truth, they would understand me and hug me, but nothing happened." I don't want them to cut people with knives for me, but why do my friends feel sorry for me until they burst into tears, but they don't react at all? Even after I said it, my grandmother still ate at my house over and over again, talking, saying that he was honest and that he was good. Brother, why do these brutes who have lost their conscience just like they have nothing to do, and they just become their own children? It's been decades, and there has been no retribution? No one has ever cared about my thoughts, I really want to vomit, what a damn thing, although I can't hide my mouth when I'm in an emotion, but I sometimes feel that it's really disgusting. I don't like it here, but I can't choose because of my background. "

Ouyang Qian touched Qi Xiu's eyelids, made her open her eyes, and then kissed her eyes: "She is not only your grandmother, but also their grandmother, everyone in your family is not only connected to you, but also to others." Xiao Qi, I'm different, I only have you in my eyes, you and me. "

Qi Xiu smiled self-deprecatingly: "Hehe, when do you say that the shadow of my childhood will disappear." "

"The shadows will not disappear, but they will be covered, covered by the rays of the sun, and I am willing to be your sun, to bring you sunshine, to cover you from the haze. "

Ouyang Qian's tone was very serious, Qi Xiu looked at him for a long time, and then smiled and turned his face away: "You talk and chew words." "

Ouyang Qian saw her dodging, and said softly: "If you're tired, just squint for a while, and when it's time for a while, I'll call you to buy you a beautiful lantern, children are going to play lanterns." "

Qi Xiu thought about it and smiled: "It's not fifteen today." "

"You don't have to be fifteen to fight, my little friend wants smallpox, I have to find a way to get it for you. "

"You don't need to be so good to me, anyway, good and bad have come over for so many years, life is impermanent, maybe after a while, you can't even see me as a person, you are so good-tempered to coax me, the ten-year contract expires, how can I live." "

"Do you think I'll let you go when the contract expires?"

Qi Xiuzhen's heart shrank suddenly, looking at him nervously, Ouyang Qian was still smiling, his eyes were like looking at the prey under his palm, and the smile made people's backs chill: "I'll coax you." "

Qi Xiu was nervous, Ouyang Qian's smile softened a little, his head was raised slightly, and he opened a little distance from her: "Do you care so much about that contract?

Qi Xiujin was flustered, got up from his lap neatly, and moved to the side: "It's not every day. Qi Xiu said truthfully, "Sometimes the military is busy, how can I have time to think about this." "

Ouyang Qian didn't speak, Qi Xiujin was disturbed by his smile just now, and she said uneasily: "Are you holding back some bad ideas? Why is that smile just now so ...... so penetrating

."

"Infiltrate? Then my purpose has been accomplished. Ouyang Qian closed his eyes with a smile, and moved uneasily, "You, what do you mean by that? We have clearly agreed, but in ten years, do you want to go back on your word?"

Ouyang Qian didn't move, and said lightly: "What's wrong with me, there is a big house to live in, there is food and drink, there are problems I will solve for you, and there are people to warm your bed every day, what a good thing." "

Qi Xiujin lowered his head and said to himself: "Yes, someone is in a hurry to send me a house, but I don't want it, it's really hypocritical." "

"You stay by my side and don't think about what you don't have. "

This kind of natural, direct order made Qi Xiujin angry: "Look at what you can, who do you order? Just like you, only a good-looking face, I am not rare, the one in my family is better looking than you, and can take care of people better than you." "

"I can also help you solve the problems in your life. "

Qi Xiu thought of his mother's affairs, and was a little cowardly: "Then, then, the marshal can also help me solve it, and Ah Cong can also help me." "

Ouyang Qian opened his eyes and stared straight at her: "I mean the problems in 'life'. "

Hearing his voiceover, Qi Xiu avoided his eyes and whispered, "People can solve it themselves." "