Broken wings

"Conceal the master, whip twenty, go to the clothes and be punished, and then think about whether to reply after the beating. "

Qi Xiu grabbed his clothes, and wanted to struggle: "The master ......

".

"Forty lashes. "

Qi Xiu took off his clothes in resignation, Ouyang Qian stood up, walked around behind her, and looked at the wound that had obviously been re-stitched, although these injuries on her body can be injured by outsiders, but if it is said that she was injured, it may not be impossible. The handle of the whip pressed up, Qi Xiujin almost exhaled in pain, and gritted his teeth: "Give you one last chance, tell me, what is the matter with the injuries on your body, if there is any more concealment, forty lashes will hit this position, and after the beating, hang it on the beam for three hours." "

Such a severe punishment, but Qi Xiu has always bitten to death is the reason he said, and there is nothing else.

She didn't realize that she was being strong, she could accept that she humbly bowed down to serve her master as a dog, but when she came back, Ouyang Qian said that she was not allowed to do it herself, and she would beg him if she wanted.

In the past, she would beg, she wouldn't speak, but she would hint with her movements and eyes, and he knew what it meant at a glance, and rubbed her head helplessly and smiled: "Puppy in estrus is really difficult." Qi Xiu's hand wrapped around his legs, his chin rubbed ambiguously on his legs, and he whispered like a small animal, "Master......" Then he will put an end to his official duties for the time being, and concentrate on dealing with the puppies on the ground.

Sometimes if she had a bad heart and wanted her to say it, she would slap him angrily, and then hug her knees and face the wall, like an angry child. Then Ouyang Qian walked over helplessly, gently shook her shoulder with his toes, and as soon as Qi Xiu turned around, he could see his doting smile, and his toes touched the ground: "Come and rub." "

She was thin-skinned beforehand, Ouyang Qian didn't force her, but every time he waited until she was unconscious, he deliberately hung her with his hands, forcing her to say countless words that made her blush, and how many times forced her face to tears. He knew that whenever he wanted her to say something, he could hear it, wet, crying, mixed with wheezing, mixed with unknown words, which could always arouse his strongest sadistic desire, and in general, no matter what Ouyang Qian did, she would basically not resist.

For the last time before Ouyang Qian separated from her seven years ago, Qi Xiu was almost able to accept him, but it was still a little close, just a little bit close.

All the appeasement was done for him, but in the face of what she had to face in the end, she still chose to retreat, Qi Xiu was both ashamed and longing, she also knew that Ouyang Qian had been patiently suppressing herself since she got married, and all kinds of emotions were mixed together, and she cried out in embarrassment. Ouyang Qian held her in his arms, kept kissing her, kissed her face, eyes, eyebrows, and ears countless times, and kept whispering: "The puppy is so good." "

Qi Xiujin cried so much that tears and snot flowed, Ouyang Qian took a tissue and wiped it off for her: "Good, come, blow your nose." "

Qi Xiu blew his nose vigorously, and the tears fell down in large pieces, Ouyang Qian threw the snot paper, saw the tears on her face, and kissed several times in distress: "Okay, the puppy has done a good job, wait for next time, wait for next time, okay?" I know that you have accepted me in your heart, the owner doesn't know how happy he is, come, don't cry, my puppy is the most well-behaved." "

Qi Xiu lay down in his shoulder socket and cried for a long time, then got up and looked at him, and said aggrieved and helpless: "I want to do it too." "

Ouyang Qian brushed away the tears that fell for her, gently rubbed her red eyes with his thumb, and looked at her seriously.

"I, too, want to...... Brother, I never thought that I could meet a confidant in my life, it is too difficult for me to start a family, it is really too difficult, a man marries a wife to pass on the lineage, but I can't do it, I really can't do it...... Even if I can meet a suitable person, who is a normal person, but I am a person who likes obscene things, I have so many evil thoughts, I like to be abused, I like to be abused, I like to be humiliated, I like the pleasure that unequal relationships bring me, but it is not okay...... I can't accept that others look down on me, look down on me, and treat me like a lewd woman who only knows pleasure, I like this kind of thing and must not let people know, I am ready to live alone for the rest of my life. The first time I found out that I was mentally abnormal, I was very scared, I was about ten years old, I was still so young, I was surrounded by normal people, and I didn't dare to tell people what was going on in my head and ask them how I could get it right. Until I met you, I felt that if people knew that I was such a person, they would definitely call me a pervert. But that kind of child will grow up with me, when I was small, it was a small piece, and when I grow up, it will be a big piece. I pretend to be a normal person during the day and live in a crowd, but when my body changes with age, when I feel uncomfortable for the first time, I feel like a pervert hiding in the bed, I will wear this disguised human skin for the rest of my life, live, be lonely, live. "

"Brother, I want to be with you, I want you to be happy, as

long as you are happy, I am willing to do anything, even if you break me, it doesn't matter, I think about it, I think about it many times...... But why can't it be? It's been more than 20 years, so why can't it be......

."

Ouyang Qian held Qi Xiu's round face, his thumb slowly stroked her face, and said seriously: "Don't worry, I won't break you." Everyone's upbringing is different, so when you grow up, you become a different person, those thoughts you like are your way of relieving stress, that is not called perverted, it is a gift from God to the little retreat, things that can make you feel happy, how can it be called psychologically abnormal? What is a normal person? What is an abnormal person? You have a masochistic psychology because of the depression when you were a child, you feel that you are not normal, what about people who like to abuse others? Can it be called normal? You feel embarrassed that you have desires, like a pervert, but everyone in this world has desires, this is a normal feeling, but some people have desires to find others to relieve them, but you can only relieve yourself. Normal people in your eyes, in places you don't know, there are thousands of ways in which they are abnormal. Xiao Qi, you know, I have never had the idea of looking down on you, all your feelings are absolute priority to me, don't you feel happy when you rely on me?".

Qi Xiu nodded: "You have given me happiness, shelter and security that I have not experienced in the previous twenty-eight years. "

"If you don't trust me,

if you don't entrust yourself to me, you won't have this peace of mind. Although in the eyes of the world, we have a gap between the status of master and slave, but you understand that on the surface I am the ruler, you are the subordinate, you seem to be in a weak position, but in fact, you are the dominant one of our feelings, if you do not recognize the identity of my master, I cannot order you to do anything, my instructions are just laughter. And when I become your master, I definitely don't want to hurt you or insult you, but to give you the greatest happiness in a way that we are all happy to accept. Your experience since you were a child made it impossible for you to trust anyone, but you choose to trust me, and I will definitely take you through it. You want me to be happy, you want me to be happy, even if I only care about myself and don't care about your body, Xiao Qi, this is the same for me, I will always value you and cherish you until the end of our lives. As for me, you don't have to feel wronged by me, don't be so anxious, when the time comes, everything will fall into place, Xiao Qi, we will come a long way. "

Qi Xiu asked him, "Will we be together forever?"

"Of course. "

Qi Xiu hugged his neck and kissed the tip of his nose, his face burned red, and he wanted to stop talking.

Ouyang Qian touched her neck and asked with a smile, "Does my little friend just go to sleep if he wants, or do something else?"

Qi Xiujin puffed out his cheeks and pursed his lips in shame: "Then, get a ...... again

."

"Okay~" Ouyang Qian pulled her into his arms with the quilt, the candlelight flickered, reflecting the swaying figures on the wall, and the playful laughter. There is no master, no slave, only a pair of lovers who know each other and snuggle up for warmth.

-

Thinking of the past, there was a little nostalgia in Qi Xiu's empty eyes.

She could have done it before, but now she doesn't want to, let alone begging him to give it, even the desire itself has become an indescribable burden. She just wants to do her duty, whether she is a human being or a livestock, she will not rebel. He was interested, and he offered to do something to her, and she could force herself to accept it.

But she couldn't do it like before, when she knew what she was, with longing and coquettish eyes, holding his legs, and saying all kinds of foul language, to beg him to satisfy her. She would rather die than become a slave to her desires, and make shameless and lowly acts, and she even thought last night that if she felt this way again in the future, she would do everything possible to completely destroy her filthy body. When there will be no more desires, she will be less miserable.

Therefore, self-harm is also a way to vent, and if you feel pain, you can't care about those feelings. Isn't that the same way back then? If you cut a knife on your body, you won't fall asleep again, you won't have nightmares again. Anyway, whether it is emptiness or pain, it is just a human feeling, and feelings can cover feelings.

After twenty lashes, the wound has been chiseled into a bloody blur, Qi Xiujin broke out in a cold sweat, and his vision became trance. Ouyang Qian stopped and asked her again if she had anything to explain, Qi Xiu opened her mouth, and blood flowed down the corners of her mouth: "There is no other reason." "

"Very well, want to test how much patience I have? "

The next five whips Ouyang Qian didn't leave his hand, Qi Xiu's hoarse voice screamed for half a time, and the rest of the sound was bitten to death in his mouth, Ouyang Qian walked in front of her, and the blood-stained whip pointed at her lips: "You can shout, you can't bite, what you taught on the first day, you still have to let me repeat it." "

Qi Xiujin let go of his teeth, and something mixed with saliva and blood flowed from his mouth: "I'm sorry, master. "

"Between you and me, there are no such words. Ouyang Qian walked around behind her again, and the torture instrument pressed against her bloody knife again, "Still unwilling to tell the truth?"

Qi Xiu was so painful that she couldn't bear it, her body moved back and forth, but she couldn't move because of the restraints on her hands and feet, and she remembered what the doctor said when she went to get stitches in the morning: 'Why is your wound cracked again?' The wound can't be old, especially this big knife wound, otherwise it will be very dangerous'.

She choked violently as soon as she opened her mouth: "It's my fault, I'm abusive, and the master doesn't have so much time to accompany me, I made it myself, and I beg the master to punish him heavily." "

"What I want to hear is the truth, Qi Xiu, you really disappointed me. "

The whip was thrown to the ground heavily, and when he heard his departing footsteps, Qi Xiu thought in a daze, it turned out that even if he was a dog, he was not qualified.