Broken wings

After a while, Qi Xiu came wearing a light coat, his hair was scattered, and he walked barefoot, the contempt and arrogance in his eyes were shocking, Su Jiu smiled at her, and when he looked down, he saw a whip in her hand, his smile froze, and he recovered in a moment.

I took off my clothes and got out of the hot springs, swam to her side, put the wet whip aside, and whispered in her ear: "Jiujiu, you are very observant, have you long seen that I have violent tendencies?".

"Well, I see. "

"You have seen me lose my mind, violent and crazy, if it weren't for the fear of serious consequences, I would be an extremely cruel and bloody person, you have also heard me say that I want to burn the young rats, you should understand in your heart, if I don't restrain myself, I am actually a very dark person in my heart, I have many, many extreme thoughts, you see me like this, aren't you afraid?".

Su Jiu lowered his eyes slightly: "Actually, I have seen it before, your temper is not the same as that of ordinary people with a big temper, especially when I have seen your blood-red eyes and your face that wants to kill people, you must have a lot of dark thoughts in your heart." "

"Then you can still be so calm, aren't you afraid that I will be violent to you?".

"We've lived together for almost four years and you haven't hurt me. Su Jiu looked at her, "You don't count the tempers you have with me, I mean the real hurt, you haven't hurt me." I know that your temperament is a little violent, and I know what causes your temperament to be violent, but since I have accepted your benefits, then I will also accept your imperfections together, and I am a very soft-spoken person, never quarrel with others, I believe that we have lived together for a long time, and I will slowly change you. "

Qi Xiu was silent for a while, picked up the whip next to him, and gently tapped it a few times in the palm of his hand: "Entering my world, it will be very different from what you imagined, do you know what this whip I am holding means?"

Su Jiu looked at her calmly: "I know, when I was vaguely aware of it, I went to read a book, and I also went to consult people with this kind of preference, and I had a general understanding." You don't have to have psychological pressure, I don't like you because of this, and naturally I don't hate you because of this. "

Qi Xiujin took a breath and leaned against the side wall of the hot spring: "Fate is such a creation and trickery, because I endured those things too early, and I didn't get the right guidance, so I grew crooked." When other little girls don't know anything, I will notice the changes in my body, but I have no one to ask, and when I grow up, I will imagine being humiliated, and every time I feel pathetic. After having Ziyi, that vague shadow slowly materialized into a person, I looked forward to being tied up and insulted, I thought, if it was him, I would be willing to accept any bondage and torture. He never looks at me with contempt, he cares about my feelings, a person's eyes can't deceive people, he can't fake my care, he always makes me happy, but he keeps suppressing his feelings. In the six years since we were separated, I have thought countless times about the day we lived in the cave house, and countless times about what kind of life we would have lived if we hadn't been separated. A cat only recognizes one owner in its life, so I won't show those gestures to anyone but him. "

Su Jiu looked at her seriously: "I am also aware of these two extreme personalities of yours, although there are not many books on this aspect, but combined with your usual speech and demeanor, I will think about it myself, you probably have extreme sadism and masochism, right?"

Qi Xiu just squinted at her faintly, waiting for her to continue.

"Sadism is your desire to vent your inner darkness since you were a child, so you will bully creatures that are weaker than you, and even more cruel than those who oppress you, as you can see from the fact that you torture small animals, you even enjoy their painful process, which makes you feel like a master, you can have a breath of air. Masochism is that your heart is imprisoned by those shackles all the year round, and those nightmares give you the greatest humiliation, because you are young and don't know how to extricate yourself, and the family environment that has been suppressed for many years makes you cowardly, you are bullied and dare not resist, just a person trembling in the corner, no one finds your fear, and no one enlightens you and protects you, so your psychology becomes distorted. You don't dare to let people know that you have such a side, disguised as a normal person, living in a crowd, plus your precociousness, due to fate, read a lot of villain books, you find that there are people in this world who are as psychopathic as you, the more you read, the greater the degree of acceptance, those patterns and words seem to be writing about yourself, as if someone has snooped into your heart, but you are not like someone to soothe and accompany as written in the book, the more you look, the more empty your heart is, you have feelings, but there is nowhere to relieve them, you are not the kind of person who messes with people at will, so you are addicted to fantasy。 "

Qi Xiu squinted at her, smiled for a while, put his arm on the edge of the wall, and took a sip of wine to hide his chaotic mood: "It turns out that I have always been transparent in your eyes, how long did it take you to peep at me to find out in such detail." "

"You get along with people on weekdays, and you tend to look down on and contempt, and your heart is very high, and you put your posture very high, so it's normal for people around you to dislike you. Including the past bad experience you said, no friends, it's all because when you get along with everyone, you don't put yourself in the same position as them, but put on the posture of being in control. These people are not the little animals you abused before who have no ability to resist, so you have paid the price for your arrogant posture, and the most straightforward thing is to run into walls in different places after coming out to work, and no one is close to you. "

Qi Xiu raised his eyebrows: "Is it really good to expose people's scars in such a straightforward way?"

Su Jiu touched her arm and said coquettishly: "In order to make you lose your temper with me less, I specially read a book that studies psychology. "

And then I was interested. "

"Your essence has not changed, you can still maintain your kindness after so many years, and this is the basis of your luck. Eight years ago, you met him as a lonely and autistic person, a person who makes you look up, he has all the qualities you envy and want to have, so you fly to him like a moth to a fire, you show him weakness, you reveal yourself to him, he is the first person to let you face the softness of your heart, and the first person to guide and comfort you, he has seen all your unbearable and embarrassed looks, but he will not look down on you, he hugs you, tells you, those thoughts that you yourself are ashamed of, he comes to help you come true, he patiently guides you to the good path, and gently tells you that you have such preferences and is not sick。 So you sacrifice yourself completely, and only accept him as your only master, even if one day you part ways, he will still live in your memory with high spirits, but you will not give that kind of self to anyone again, from now on, even if there is an intimate relationship, you will only be the master. "

"You see it very thoroughly, it seems that you really did a lot of work to stay with me. Qi Xiu stroked his hair and circled his fingers, "You have already touched my temperament, and it is a ritual to bring you here today." "

"Huh?".

"The ritual of two people together. Qi Xiu squatted on his knees, the whole person was immersed in the water, and he held it for a while before he came out again, lying on his back in the warm pool, "When my person is conditional, when do I want to play this, you have to cooperate with me, have you thought about it?"

"I've always been prepared for that. "

Qi Xiu's fingertips hooked Su Jiu's chin, and let out an ambiguous breath: "I'll talk about it later." "

Su Jiu directly used a kiss instead of answering.

When the chains bound her hands, feet and neck, she still felt very uncomfortable, but when the whip slowly slid on her body and tried it, her body stiffened, her waist was half soft, and Qi Xiu raised the corners of her mouth: "Don't like this?"

"It's kind of ...... Not used to it. Su Jiu hesitated, and Qi Xiujin raised a bigger smile, "Then you have to adapt as soon as possible, because I like it." "

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two of them made a fuss in the water for a while, took the grapes and wine glasses on the shore, Su Jiu looked at his wrist, there was no trace of strangulation, and Qi Xiu smiled lightly: "I won't use things that I am not sure of on you, and I will not play this often, I don't want you to be inseparable from it." The light in Su Jiu's eyes dimmed, not wanting to let herself be separated from it, she understood very well, she was still ready to withdraw at any time.

On the way back from the hot springs, Qi Xiu wanted to go to the street to buy a few pots of flowers to decorate the house, Su Jiu went with her, bought some fruit snacks, and bought some rouge gouache, and then went to the flower shop to pick flowers, Qi Xiu went to each flower to smell the taste, and then held a bouquet of roses to the tip of Su Jiu's nose: "Do you smell the fragrance?" Su Jiu sniffed it and nodded, "There is a very light fragrance." "

"It would be nice if there was a moon season in the flower shop, and the fragrance of the moon season is stronger. Qi Xiu and Su Jiu picked a few bouquets of flowers and continued to walk forward, Qi Xiu Jin saw a bookstore, he raised his chin, signaled that he wanted to go in, and then handed her the bag in his hand, and put down the sentence 'Go to the front and sit and wait for me while drinking' and went in, Su Jiu raised his hands full, and didn't want to go forward by himself, so he had no choice but to follow her in, put the things he bought aside, and then saw Qi Xiujin shaking his shoulders inside, she shook his red palm, and walked over slowly:" What are you looking at so happy. "

Qi Xiu closed the book and avoided it to the side, with an indescribable smile on his face, he forced a smile and pursed his lips: "Book." "

"When did you like to read. Su Jiu glanced at her, "What book?"

Qi Xiujin squeezed his eyebrows and said, "It's just an interesting book." Then he put down the book, pulled her over and said, "Let's go, go home and eat." "

Su Jiu took the book on the table and looked at it, and thought, I know that she is not serious. However, she still took the book and paid the bill, and the boss looked at her a little strangely, but Su Jiu always had no different color. Qi Xiujin saw that Su Jiu bought the book and came out, and asked funny: "Why are you also interested in villain books?" "

Qi Xiu glanced at no one on the side, and secretly pumped her ass: "It's so sweet." "

Su Jiu rolled her eyes.