Broken wings

It's really crazy! Qi Xiu sat up and was irritable. He has been separated from himself, and he should do everything to others, what are you angry about? What kind of flying vinegar do you eat? What qualifications do you have to be jealous? People don't look down on you at all, and you are still thinking about what he does!

But why? Why did I keep thinking about him and thinking about him, and eating sand for him, if it weren't for him, how would I

want to come to the battlefield, how could I suffer from those things that I was ashamed of, those nightmares that have entangled me for countless nights, if I hadn't been bent on being with him, none of this would have happened, and I might have lived my life plainly. Why is it that he has been tortured so much, but he can be so good with others as a matter of course, and he still comes to himself and sneers at him, trampling on his persistence and dignity like mud? He has been happy and happy in the past few years, and he has suffered and suffered in the past few years, why should he be ridiculed by him? Just because his status is noble, just because he is rich?

But this path was chosen by yourself, not forced by

others, people didn't take this relationship seriously, it was you who took it seriously, thinking that he would only be gentle with himself and good to himself, but he found that he was not even his junior, how ridiculous? Who else are you to blame? Who can you blame? All this suffering is not caused by him, it is you yourself, and you are self-inflicted.

When he was

fighting with the enemy on the battlefield, when every tendon in pain was about to break, when he was in that nightmare, when he was in a nightmare, when he was self-harming, when he was guarding the so-called 'loyalty', he should linger in his drunken and gentle country, it was funny.

The more he thought about it, the higher the fire burned, and finally his eyes were full of hatred, and he clenched his fists fiercely and slammed into the bed: "Kill them!" He gasped for a while before he reacted from the raging anger, "What am I thinking?

Qi Xiu was so frightened that her psychology was still so extreme, and the idea of killing them by surprise scared her so much that she almost lost her soul, and slapped herself while crying, and scolded angrily: "What do you want! What do you think! What do you want! Kill them? You are so vicious! What do you think! What are you thinking! What are you thinking

! What are you thinking......?" her cheeks were already bruised, and Qi Xiujin touched her face that was a little soft because of the swelling, and cried, "You can't live without him, right?" What are you crying crying for! Don't cry useless things! Don't cry ......" But the tears couldn't be stopped at all, so she masochistically tore the corners of her swollen mouth and pulled them out, and said fiercely, "I'll let you cry! I'll make you useless!" Her cheeks were quickly pinched by her, and blood fell down her fingers onto the sheets, as if she was about to wring the piece of flesh off, and finally she couldn't stand the pain before she let go.

The red circles of his eyes stared at the blood on his hands, and he smiled in a hoarse voice, haven't you always expected him to live? He is still alive, you should be content, who he likes to be good with and who is good, what does it have to do with you? If you can't stand it, you will hand in your resignation, no one will stop you, it doesn't matter if you are missing a woman in this huge military camp......

Qi Xiu touched his face,

gasped in pain when he touched it, and went to look in the mirror, the left side of his face was much higher than the right face, some purple, and a piece of skin was pinched off the corner of his mouth.

After washing her hands and face with medicine, and changing the sheets, she lay down on the bed, covered the quilt firmly, and said to herself: "Sleep, sleep, sleep and tomorrow will be nothing." "

The moon rose high, but she couldn't sleep after tossing and turning, and she could only count the sheep in her heart: "One sheep, two sheep, three sheep, four sheep, five sheep...... One thousand and one sheep, one thousand and two sheep......" She opened her eyes, a line of tears slid down the corners of her eyes into her sideburns, she couldn't sleep, the sheep that had been counted for so long still couldn't sleep, a wave of anger for no reason rushed up, and her heels stomped on the bed several times, "Ah...... Are you going to die? Why can't you sleep? Tomorrow there are so many things waiting for you to do! What are you thinking about! What are you going to do if you don't sleep yet!".

After the rage, she

got out of bed and found two bottles of tranquilizers, counted four, mixed with hot water and swallowed her stomach, she only hoped that she could fall asleep, and it was best not to wake up in the next few days, unless she was hungry and couldn't stand it and woke up. Qi Xiu Jin's mind is like a paste now, thinking about what he has experienced since he was a child, the people he has met, how they are doing, and what he is doing now, still asking for no people, asking for money or not, it is really the same as always. In a trance, I remembered that I was on vacation, and I didn't need to go to the barracks tomorrow, so I just gave up on myself for a few days.

Unexpectedly, she woke up the next afternoon, her stomach was rumbling so much, she got up, put on a casual dress, went down and ordered a few dishes, let them be sent to the room, and then went back to the room to nest. She only felt tired of living, and felt very boring, maybe it was time to go back to her hometown, find a place to work and save some money, and then live day by day.

"Guest, your meal is ready. There was a knock on the door outside, and Qi Xiu got up to open the door, took the tray and came in, and said in a low voice, "Thank you." Then he ate silently.

It seems to go back to the time when I was in Guangzhou again, the days of being alone, at that time, I also went to work alone, ate alone, went shopping alone, everything was alone, but my heart didn't seem to be as empty as it is now. Yes, I am almost ten years older than I was then, and I am no longer young, and my life seems to be a waste no matter how I live.

The Japanese barracks were very lively, everyone was very happy to eat, drink and play, and there were few times in the barracks that were so indulgent, but Su Jiu felt desolate, as if he could suddenly understand why Qi Xiujin stood in the crowd many times, but her eyes were empty, because the excitement around her had nothing to do with her.

Ouyang Qian had just arrived, his eyes were full of eyes looking for Qi Xiu, but he didn't find it, and when he saw Su

Jiu standing coldly on the side, he stepped forward with a wine glass, looked around again and still didn't see Qi Xiu, and asked, "Miss Su, why didn't General Qi come?" Qi Huaijue saw Ouyang Qian leaving, walked a few steps quickly, stepped forward and grabbed his arm, and stayed quietly on the side.

Su Jiu caught a glimpse of them holding their arms, and said coldly: "She is sick, she had a cold a few days ago, and she is not well yet, so she can't see the wind." "

"What's wrong with her?" Seeing Ouyang Qian's instinctive concern, Su Jiu squinted at the past and said coldly, "Qian Shuai is still holding his fiancée's hand and asking other women, aren't you afraid that such a beautiful bride will be jealous?"

Ouyang Qian was stunned, Su Jiu seemed to feel that his attitude was too tough, so he added: "I am the person in General Qi's room, I will take care of her, and Qian Shuai doesn't have to worry about it." Then as if remembering something, he took out a bulging red envelope from his cuff and handed it over with both hands, "This is a congratulatory gift she has prepared, let me pass it on to you, the money is not much, it is always a heart, and I hope that Qian Shuai will not dislike it." Ouyang Qian caught it stiffly, only to feel that the palm of his hand seemed to be pressed with a heavy stone, and his face was a little gloomy.

Qi Huaijue smiled: "This is really unfortunate, I was thinking that I could talk to her, she said that she would get married at the end of the year, saying that she had found her sweetheart, who else do I want to meet......" Su Jiu glanced at her, his tone was full of hostility, and said politely, "It's me." "

Qi Huaijue was stunned for a moment, and then his smile became embarrassed: "Ahh......hh That's ......" Qi Huaijue glanced at Ouyang Qian and stopped talking.

"I'm going to clean up my things when I go back, so I won't talk to you too much. Su Jiu bowed to Ouyang Qianfu and turned around to go back to his room.

Ouyang Qian was worried about Qi Xiu's condition, so he broke away from Qi Huaijue's hand and said in a low voice: "When you disperse, you can go back first." "

Qi Huaijue saw Ouyang Qian's figure rushing out in a hurry, and his emotions couldn't be seen clearly in his eyes.

It was easy to find the place she rented, and directly pried the door in, the room was not big, but it was very warmly arranged, and it could be seen that the owner of the room cherished this place very much, and everything as far as the eye could see was carefully taken care of, clean and spotless, and her room in the barracks was very different.

Walked up and saw that her whole person was covered in the quilt,

her head was not exposed, she carefully lifted the quilt, and saw that her sleeping face was covered with tears, her forehead was full of sweat, her sideburns were soaked, her whole person shrunk into a ball, as if her nose was out of breath, her mouth was slightly open and panting, there was a faint snoring sound, and the bed was wet with a large patch, and the tear stains were almost dry.

Seeing her like this, Ouyang Qian was full of incomprehension and heartache, why did she cry......? She still has feelings for herself? Then why does she still marry someone else, and she is still ambiguous with others? The palm of her hand poked her forehead and found that she had a fever, so she hurriedly hugged her body back to the head of the bed, but she muttered, "Is the dinner party over?" I have a dry mouth, pour me some water. Her voice was hoarse and soft, and she didn't know what she was saying until she listened carefully.

Ouyang Qian went to pour warm water, sat on the edge of the bed and helped her upper body, and said softly, "The water is here." Hearing the voice, Qi Xiu opened her eyes suddenly, and the whole person sat up, her eyes were red, and her eyes were bloodshot, and when she saw that it was him, she hoarsely wrung her brows and said, "How did you get in? How do you know I live here?"

Ouyang Qian said lightly: "I picked the lock, it's not difficult to check you, drink water first." "