Notes of the Creator God

During this period, Spade just listened quietly and walked slowly. She covered herself and Kate with spider webs, distorting the light around them and becoming semi-invisible. She walked all the way from the northeast corner of the Forbidden City to the southwest corner, spanning The entire Forbidden City.

When it came to Foel City, even if Spade himself didn't want to admit it, Kate knew that she was fascinated by it. Kate's experience in the past six months was more exciting than Spade's past hundreds of years.

Because after becoming an apostle of the temple, the work she performed was nothing more than killing. She lived a life of licking blood on the tip of a knife and lurking under the night, even though most of the time she did not actually"kill" a person. Life, but"erasing" part of a complete life is also a sinful killing karma.

That cannot be called good, it is equivalent to erasing the existence of a certain life for a certain period of time, which is more cruel than complete killing.

Spade knew very well that the authority he had been given, the right to"kill" that he had been given, was destined to only be the blooming flower of evil.

Just after Kate finished telling her and her companions' experiences in Foel City, Spade stopped. Perhaps Kate was also intentionally guiding Spade where to go. Unknowingly, they had walked out of the Forbidden City. , came to a place like a rooftop.

But at this moment, the evening has passed, and time is passing faster than imagined.

It was only when Spade stood in front of the guardrail that he realized that from here, he could overlook the entire Forbidden City, and the lights had been lit, decorating the palace clusters with splendor and splendor. This was more of a story than walking among the pavilions and pavilions. Incredible shock

"Xiaobei, this is Jingshan Park, the only place where you can see the full view of the Forbidden City."

"Jingshan......"

Spade had an impression of this place. She seemed to have heard of it somewhere.

"Last Sunday, the master and Mio-chan had a date here, and it was here that the relationship between the two developed further, but——"

Yes, of course she was impressed.

Every time she"erased" a part of someone else's"life" with her own hands, those"memories" hidden in the fragments of"life" would play back like images in her mind.

Sometimes, Spade is really glad that she is a careless person. Without a heart, she would not be able to empathize, and she would not feel guilty for the"memories" that were taken away from her.

"——Their memories were erased by you."

As soon as Kate said these words, Spade felt a sense of guilt in his heart.

The weight of others saying such words is completely different from the weight of such words coming from Kate's mouth.

Spade himself didn't have the same feeling. I know why.

Maybe it's because the"heart" I have temporarily recovered comes from the gift of the girl in front of me. That's why I feel guilty when facing her seemingly harsh words.

Kate turned golden The kitten jumped from Spade's shoulder to the ground, and then jumped onto the railing. Its small green eyes looked at Spade motionlessly, and the golden kitten slowly spoke:

"Xiaobei, I don't mean to blame you"

"What I want to say is——"

"I do not blame you......"

"We don't blame you"

"In the past, you didn't have a choice. But now, you have a choice!"

"The so-called confusion in your heart is just watching yourself sink soberly"

"Why not speak out! Only when you speak out can you realize how uncomfortable you feel, and how important the 'listener' is, right?"

"You know something about what?......"Spade spoke in a low voice.

"Xiaobei......"The golden kitten was a little frightened by Spade's current tone, and its tail began to wag uneasily.

"...‘Friendship', is just a hindrance. Looking for 'heart' is just an excuse!"

Spade began to describe the pain in his heart in a self-defeating tone.

"My value and meaning of existence are just for killing! Just to kill the gods! That's all!"

Kate finally figured it out. She finally figured out what Spade's inner demons were.

What bothered and confused her was not the 'friendship' she had lost.

It was what gave her such a murderous karma. , the"god" who deprived her of her human heart.

This was the first time Kate saw such a clear expression on Spade's face, such thorough-pain.

This girl really felt this way, She really felt that she should bear the karma of killing and live, even if the number of living beings actually killed was only a handful; she really felt that she should go all the way to the dark side for the great cause of killing gods in the Temple of the Dead.

No one had ever taught her how to do it. Live for herself - so she chose to bear everything silently.

What she wants to find is not the heart of"humanity" - but the heart of"self"

"......I don’t mean to deny the meaning of your existence, Xiaobei."The golden kitten said in a distressed tone,"I want to help you, help you find your 'self'! Stop living for what others give you! You have to live for yourself!"

"So! What is, live for yourself! Who will come and tell me? Are you here to tell me?"

Spade roared loudly, and she didn't know why she was so angry.

Could it be that she became angry because she was forced to express the pain in her heart?

"So...If so, come and tell me how to live for yourself - isn't that also the meaning of existence that others are looking for for me?"