Knight of the Blue Lagoon (The Past of Tao v)

7. Promise (The Past of Tao i)

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When she got tired from thinking about it, she fell asleep, but Tang Jiahui's brain cells did not stop. A picture popped up in her mind. Under the blue sky, the endless grassland, one flower, and only one flower, red and delicate. moving. The sun caresses everything silently, the river quietly plays the song of the heart, and a boy looks up to the sky and makes a promise of love to the white clouds.

There are no crowds here, no hustle and bustle of high-rise buildings, everything belongs to nature, real, quiet and comfortable..

The boy was waving, and the girl came closer. The boy pointed at the flower and said,"Come, come, look, look, this is you, how beautiful you are."

The girl leaned down to look at it, and then said,"It would be nice if there was a little wind. You can dance in the wind."

The wind suddenly blew, and the girl looked up and found that the boy was the squad leader, but the squad leader had been blown up. During the struggle, the squad leader said with great effort:"Would you like to fly with me?"

The girl was at a loss. , when the girl realized that she was willing to grab the monitor's hand again, the wind became stronger and stronger, and she could no longer hold on, and her hand slowly slipped away. The girl was very frustrated and lowered her head. The petals were blown off piece by piece, and there was blood at the break of each piece.

I thought this girl was my mother, but upon closer inspection, the girl turned out to be me.

Tang Jiahui was awakened by this strange dream. She dreamed that the monitor was actually with her. She could vaguely remember his appearance.

Tang Jiahui couldn't rest in peace, trying to recall the outline of the squad leader, and kept thinking about where he went and what happened to him. I got up and came to the kitchen while half asleep. The living room was empty. It was a quiet night. There was no sound or light. In the dim moonlight, I vaguely saw a familiar silhouette sitting quietly at the dining table, as if waiting for me.

"You finally came. The boy's voice was deep.

Tang Jiahui recognized him as the monitor,"Where have you been?" I miss you"

"I am right beside you."The monitor replied.

At this moment, there was a sudden sound of opening the door. Tang Jiahui turned her head, and her mother also came to the living room. When she turned around, there was nothing in front of her. Tang Jiahui was confused, what kind of world is this, is it a dream or reality, when When is it reality and then is it a dream?

"Can't sleep? Are you hungry?"My mother saw Tang Jiahui looking in a daze.

"Well, you suddenly woke up and you couldn't sleep either? Mother"

"In the past, children would wake up habitually while feeding at this time."Mother.

Mother opened the refrigerator and saw the food packed back in the evening. She warmed it up and took out a bottle of wine and two large glasses from the kitchen cabinet.

"Come and have a drink with me. It's been a long time since I've had a drink."Mother

"Such a big cup!"I don't know when my mother started drinking. She seemed to drink a lot.

"The bigger the cup, the fewer times you pour it."My mother seemed to be joking. She didn't know why she bought such a big cup. Maybe she had seen such a big cup at the monitor's house.

"Did you sleep well just now?"The mother looked at her daughter in a daze.

"Fortunately, I woke up from the dream."Tang Jiahui

"Sometimes I have nightmares when I am too tired from traveling. I haven’t had a dream for a long time, and I also had a dream."Mother

"You dreamed about the monitor, really? how is he?"Tang Jiahui asked in surprise

"Seeing his smile from a distance, it was still so innocent. I called him loudly, but it seemed like something was blocking my hearing, and I kept smiling without saying a word. I walked closer and tried to pull him, but it turned out there was nothing, just like a shadow."Mother.

Tang Jiahui and her mother seemed to have the same dream. They both saw the squad leader in their dreams. The mother picked up the wine glass and touched it gently with Tang Jiahui. When her daughter came back from college, the mother was always very happy and rarely had a moment of leisure. Especially today, having her daughter by her side relieved her depressed spirit a lot.

In front of the dining table, under the gentle light, her heart was filled with excitement and true feelings, which made her mother seem to have returned to her hazy student days, and she was with her daughter.

"Mom, would it be nice if you went with the squad leader?"After Tang Jiahui returned home, she kept imagining another ending. Everything might not be what it is today.

Her mother looked at Tang Jiahui and remembered her indecisiveness and selfish actions at the time. It seems that today they have not brought any good results.

Fate is a wonderful thing. Sometimes I think that I have abandoned some things, but in the end it is these things that have abandoned me. Whoever abandons whom will know that the emotional debts he carries will have to be repaid sooner or later, no matter who repays it, or who repays it. It usually happens to what you care about most. God will not bully anyone, it will only use time to adjust it.

"The punishment for him was too severe. After all, he was only 16 years old at the time. The school actually wanted to destroy him by doing this. If you left together, wouldn't everything be different?"Tang Jiahui not only felt sorry for the squad leader, but also felt sorry for her mother. It was a pity that they could not be together.

"In the beginning, those who were indeed asked to leave were actually expelled. The head teacher contacted the principal, but nothing changed. When I returned home during the vacation, the punishment results had not yet come down. It was worse to be at school than at home. It was a torment. I thought a lot. At that time, I was thinking that if I was expelled, we would leave together."Mother

"So what about grandparents, what should they do?"

"Your grandfather found some connections to get me into a key high school in the city, and he spent a lot of effort to get me into a key class. He hoped that I could get into a good university. Of course they were very angry after this happened. They hated iron and thought that once they dropped out of school, everything would be over. The hopes of two generations in college would be ruined. Their face was even worse. They kept blaming me and locked me up at home. , not allowed to go out, not allowed to make phone calls, not allowed to watch TV, not allowed to do anything, I was very desperate at that time."My mother picked up the cup and took a sip.

"One day during the vacation, the squad leader came to me suddenly. Your grandfather was not there that day. When grandma saw him, she became very angry. She took all her resentment on him, scolded him severely, and accused the squad monitor of harming me. He said that if he didn't want to study, he shouldn't harm others, etc., and he said a lot of unpleasant things. In fact, he is the one who wants to study the most and is the best at studying in our class. When I heard your grandma scolding, although he never made a sound, I knew it was him and hurried to the door. He looked at me with apologetic eyes. In fact, he had endured more than me. Your grandma immediately closed the door and strictly prohibited I met him again. The moment he closed the door, he turned his hand slightly and pointed outside. This is the code word in our class, which means see you later. After a while, when your grandma's anger subsided, I planned to go out, but your grandma stopped me and asked me what I was doing and if I wanted to go find him. I said I was going to buy menstrual care towels, and your grandma happily left to buy them.. On the other hand, I was afraid that I would go out to see him, so I locked the door. Now it was too bad, I couldn't get out. I wanted to wait until dark to see if I could sneak out, but I was also worried that he would wait until dark."

"Did he really wait until dark?"Tang Jiahui

"Of course not, he is a very smart person. When he saw your grandma going out in a hurry, he knew that I couldn't get out. As soon as your grandma left, he rang the conversation doorbell, and we could only communicate through this.

Finally, he asked me if I would like to go with him and try my luck in another city. I agreed at the time. During that time, it was a life worse than death at home. If the consequences of dropping out of school come to pass, life at home will only become more difficult. I decided to go with him to a place where no one knew me and start over. At that time, I felt that life without the squad leader would not have much meaning. We made an appointment for a day next week, hoping to endure it honestly for a week, and then sneak out when your grandparents relaxed their vigilance."Mother

"A few days before leaving, your grandfather and an uncle took me to the Academic Affairs Office. In the past few days, your grandpa has been looking for connections to deal with my affairs. Your grandpa was a soldier and did not study much, but he still has some comradeship relationships in this city."Mother

"What are you going to do?"Tang Jiahui.

The mother stopped, picked up the wine glass and took a big sip. After a pause, she said:"I met the principal and said that the monitor got me drunk that day and tricked me into the hotel. I resisted, but there was no way to fight back. Li, we didn’t do anything, and the police came and said that he was deceived because of his confusion. It was him who should be punished by the school. He wanted to give me justice and give everyone an explanation. He said that he was a victim, and then Grandpa asked me to go out and wait. They talked in the office for a long time. The principal said that he would discuss the matter again."

"That's what you're going to say."Tang Jiahui was a little disappointed.

"no."My mother hesitated for a moment.

"So why is this happening?"Tang Jiahui became sad.

"In fact, I was willing at the time and didn't resist at all. Of course I knew best. The reason for this is actually the inner fear, fear of change, and fear of unfamiliar cities. Your grandpa told me that if I don’t say this, I will beHe wanted to go out, and even threatened me with the relationship between father and daughter. In addition, your grandmother used hard and soft tactics, saying that it is better for one person to drop out than two people to drop out. Even if he wants to leave this school, he can still go to other schools. If he has good grades, he can do it anywhere. When you were admitted to college, you were different. You didn't have as good grades as him, so you compromised in the end. Under internal and external pressure, I became confused for a moment. I gave up on him and chose to be selfish. After calming down, I felt very sorry for him. But it all started because of him, so after thinking about it for a long time, I no longer feel that it is wrong."Mother.